Becoming a Doctor

This summer I have to decide whether I 'll become a doctor or an architect, in order to choose in September the suitable subjects at school. My dream job is to become an astrophysicist or a nuclear physicist , but I admit that it is pretty difficult to be successful in this area. I am smart, I know it , I am not sure if I am that smart though to change the whole world. My conception though about this profession may be wrong, I am just a confused 17 year old girl , how can I know ?

Last year , I started taking design lessons intenting to see if I can become an architect. I was always an artistic person ( I play music , I write and read a lot , I take drama lessons...) , so I thought that I should pick a domain that combines art and science. I also have completed the 1/3 of the syllabus in math ( a subject in which I will be examined. Maybe I should explain you the system. Here in Greece , when the children finally are in the last grade at school, they take some exams called "Panellinies" (< παν = whole + Ελλάς= greek). The subjects they choose define the universities that they can pick. If you choose biology, physics, chemistry and literature-Modern Greek you can become a doctor, a pharmacist ect but not a physicist. If you pick math , physics, chemistry and modern Greek-literature you can become an architect (this requires design too) , an engineer, a physicist, a biologist ( you don't have picked biology!) ect.. There are other domains too , ( Ancient Greek , Latin , Modern Greek-L. , History to become an archaeologist , a lawyer ect , Math, Economic Theory, M.G.-L. , I.T. lead to jobs such as an economist ect) but I ' ll become either a doctor or an architect, so I will pick one of the first two. Then according to your grades at these exams you can enter to the university you prefer.

When I was younger I disliked biology just because of two teachers that I hated. I also did not want to become a doctor because I did not want to become like my mother ( she is a pediatrician) . It is not that my relationship with her is not good or sth , we really get along, but I wanted to become like my father who is a civil engineer. So I realised that the reasons I did not want to become a doctor were shallow. My father encourages me to go to medical school , because he says that even though I can become a really adept architect I will not have to do with science that much ( global financial reasons) . He also told me that what he is doing the last 10 years has nothing to do with what he has learnt. He wanted to design harbours , big houses - there was a period ( before the recession in Greece) that he did though and gained a lot of money- and now he is just managing tasks which is inferior to his abilities and knowledge. He knows that he values more that this and does not want me to experience the same. Our characters are exactly the same , our way of thinking, everything.. He knows himself, so he knows me really well , but I am too young to know who I am and what I really want.

After some discussions ( mostly with my father, my mother and some uncles - a surgeon and an engineer) I realised that medical school is suitable for me. I can secure my whole life , I can be a scientist , I can help society, I can investigate various themes.. I will be dealing with serious and difficult matters ( I may not be an artist , but this is why there are hobbies) . The problem is that I haven't started biology lessons yet , so I don't know if I actually like biology or if I am good enough. I am not even 100% sure if I want to change domain abruptly. I know this decision will define my whole life but I can't know yet if architecture or medicine suits me more.

If I opt for medicine I will have to face my teachers too , they will say that this is irresponsible and one year of preparation is ruined ect . This will not be under consideration as far as my profession is concerned of course. My plan is to continue attending my math classes this summer and start immediately biology lessons in the expense of my design classes. In September everything will be clear ( I hope).

This situation makes me really stressed. I constantly think about this issue and I never reach an end. Maybe I am afraid to admit to myself that I should become a doctor. I feel like I am throwing away 1 year of hard work ( math - design). My design lessons were 10 h per week , while math was 4h per week. It is hard.

I don't know what to do...