Unsent Letter to the Love of my life

Dear love of my life,

I have decided that we cannot be together, and before you set up your mind into changing mine, I will explain the reasons to you.

You see, there are two versions of myself (or the person I could have been):

One is the person you knew when I was back in the Dominican Republic. She was a young adolescent, devoted to her studies, to her family, to the church, and to you. She was loving, innocent, caring, selfless, and she loved you with all her heart. She would have done anything and everything to be with you. Well, she proved it to you when she abandoned whoever she was with just to be with you whenever you came back. She would have done whatever you asked her for, no questions asked. Maybe she was too naïve, but she preferred to call it “being in love”.

The other person is the one I have become once I moved from the D.R. She is still loving, yet not so innocent anymore. She is still caring and selfless, but I do not think she loves you anymore. Do not take me wrong, she will always love you, yet not in the same way as before. She is more independent. She is meeting more people. Life has shown her that there are always two sides of things, even though we always prefer to look at the good one, there is always a bad one.

There was a bad side in the way I loved you before. I was to focus on you. I thought you were my world and that I was meant to be with you, but it is nothing like that. Experiences and people have shown me that if I had loved you in the way endgame couples love each other, you and I would not have done the things we have done to ourselves.

Maybe it is love after all, but not the same kind of life we thought.

We have learned to live without each other for so long that, why be together now? We might not want to accept it, but we are better off without each other. I am not good for you, and you are not good for me. That is why I have to let you go…

You are always going to be the love of my life, but that does not mean we must be together. You have to follow your path, and I must follow mine before we hurt each other’s feelings.

I hope you find someone else to make you happy. I wish you the best, and I hope you achieve all you want to do, but I am not gonna be there. I’m sorry, but this is goodbye.