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thank god you're dead
what a vile person you were
I was addicted to you, a dysfunction
It was this girl I dated. She was a new employee at my job. We both instantly would lock eyes in awe of eachother.
Soon enough we had a party at my house with both of us there.
In a drunken stupor, the both of us started making out in the living room.
In front of all our coworkers.
Maybe that's why later they seemed to have it out for us.....
We were publicly cheating on our respective girlfriend and boyfriend.
I was unhappy with that relationship, it was a bad way to get out of it.
I broke up with her the next day.
Coworker girl did so as well with her boyfriend.
And we started dating soon after.
Our other coworkers could see we were jealous and possessive of one another.
We were a dramatic couple, that would talk about eachother behind eachothers back.
I guess I was pretty awful then too, I can blame her and the circumstances, but ultimately I made my own decisions.
One night my roommate (female) and she wanted to go out dancing.
I wasn't in the mood to go out, despite them begging me to go.
When they returned they immediately told me that they messed around at the club.
Specifically my roommate had used her hands on my gf in the bathroom.
I was horrified, betrayed. Yet I didn't break up with her.
Later another night she had a house party at her house.
I spotted her getting very close to another coworker,
flirting physically.
I lost my mind and fled the party.
A few days later that coworker told me he slept with her.
I interrogated her about it. She said he actually slept on the floor.
And when she woke up she found he was in the bed with his arm around her.
And she said he kicked him out.
However a different coworker confirmed cheating coworker's dude story.
This time I broke up with her.
Then the next day the two dudes reverse their story.
They said they were just trying to mess with me.
In whatever was the truth, truthfully I was getting messed with.
Being betrayed by that cunt is not too surprising,
but more savage was our other coworkers conspiring against us.
After so much hospitality we showed these people.
Inviting and feeding them at our house many times.
I just have trouble making friends after being betrayed by so many people.
Or trusting a girl in a relationship . . .
So me and ex get back together, and maybe apart and back together again.
I couldn't stay away from her. I was so magnetically attracted to her.
Yet I would get so upset and possessive over her.
One night, at my house; me, my roommate, a girl and her guy friend were drinking and eating at our house.
The girl's guy friend passes out on the couch.
And in some weird energy, me, my roommate, and the girl hold hands.
We proceed into my roommates room, lying in her bed.
They start kissing, and ask me to join.
It advances to a full on menage a trois.
Fundamentally I'm cheating on my current girlfriend there.
I didn't fool my girlfriend for a single day after, I immediately broke up with her.
But never divulging the full truth, but with plenty of reasons anyway.
Time passes. We still work together, its painful.
She comes into work when I'm working and shes not,
usually bringing a guy and trying to make me jealous.
She knows it works so easily and it does.
She comes to events I host.
Eventually shes besties with my roommate all of a sudden.
Roommate asks me if it's okay she comes over.
Me just trying to be nice says it's okay.
I maybe thought I could handle it, but quickly I change my attitude.
I decide to just be out of the house while they are there.
I'm bicycling like mad through town.
I'm imagining all the things they are doing, (they are with a guy as well)
I decide I have to go back.
I'm amicable but I'm not hanging out with them,
they are in the living room I'm in my room.
I start to get angry and fume.
I text my roommate, that I can't handle my ex being in the same house as me.
If they could go somewhere else.
She doesn't respond.
I go out to the living room and interrupt them and sit near my ex.
Directly telling her I'm not comfortable with her being there.
And if she could leave, or they all go somewhere.
My roommate denies my request, and they decide to hideout in her room.
Me imagining what I know my roommate is capable and prone to do I go berserk.
I knock around things in my room, tossing my chair and electric piano.
I go up to my roommate's room and knock violently on her door.
"(ex's name) HAS TO GO!"
I keep knocking and repeating this.
Knowing if they wanted to do hanky panky this would be a real mood killer.
Soon enough they left our house.
I had to meditate in a bathtub to cope afterwards.
I was extremely embarrassed and shocked of myself.
I was even traumatized at how much violence could exist in me.
However I would have never done anything to anybody, I just took it out on furniture.
Still I knew this occurrence indicated to me I had to leave.
I left the state as soon as I could.
No longer could ex reach me in my workplace or home.
Maybe I could step away from such horrible events and forget them.
A month after I had left, I start getting dumps of messages from people I don't know.
They are saying "sorry for your loss".
I findout my ex had died.
She was taking xanax while drinking and the combo killed her in her sleep.
I felt no remorse for her death.
I honestly felt relief, now this girl could never reach me.
I truly felt at the time the world was better without an awful human being as her on the planet.
However looking back, I was atrocious as well.
I am hesitant to become vulnerable to people since then.
But consequently it seems women are just not interested in me either.
It's been 7 years since then, and I still haven't been in a relationship.
I feel like I'm cursed from her.
Despite that I've accepted my lot in life.
I hold that story in hopes maybe,
I will never let a situation get so bad that I will act out in such a vile way.
Or at least I should surround myself with people that have respectful character.
There was this mirage of comradery and friendship among us all in that friend group/job. But many of us did not respect one another. We betrayed one another in the worst way.
I hope to one day have friends again that I can trust and be trustworthy with.
Thanks for listening!
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