My Unsent Letter

I'm sick and tired of always being treated like the second choice. The backup whenever you need something. Im a person too. You’re not a good friend. I miss having someone that never expected from me what they didn't of themselves. I feel as if im not good enough and I'lI always be the last resort. I will never have another best friend to confide in or who truly gets what I feel. I feel like im rotating on an axis and everyone is opposite of me. Whenever they need me, I'm there. I’m always there. I entertain them, and everything they have to say. When I try the same, I’m ignored and shut down. They're my first choice when I’m not even on their radar. I want back my best friend who moved away. She would make me smile and challenge me to try new things. Now shes simply another tiny circle who appears on my instagram.