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He's mean to my mom and my 2 younger siblings. He hits all of us. I have bruises and cigarette burns from him. Hes the reason I have to wear makeup and long sleeves to school. My mom doesnt care because she loves him. I, being the oldest daughter, am treated like a slave by him.
clean the dishes
wash the clothes
make breakfast, lunch, dinner
go deal with your sister
go deal with your brother
take the trash outside
bring me that bottle
bring me my knife
bring me my lighter
look at me when Im speaking to you
dont talk back
dont ask questions
dont disrespect me
dont give me that attitude bitch
It never ends. He always has a demand for me to follow. Always "teaching" me something. I dont like his lessons. He can shove them up his ass.
I make his food and pour his drinks. He should be nicer to the person who holds his life in their hands. One day he might get sick and it might be because of me.
Sometimes I think about stabbing him while hes passed out drunk. It would be so satisfying... watching him die. watching the life drain out of his eyes and into mine. I daydream about it. I'd be sent away but my siblings would be safer. They'd only have to survive mom and not both of them.
Mom is a fucking idiot. She got mad at me once for yelling at her bf after he threatened to put my 4 year old sister (LITERALLY HIS OWN KID) on the streets if she didn't stop "being loud". My sister started crying and came to me for comfort. Mom also got mad about that. She said she wants her kids to go to her, not me. Its crazy that she has the nerve to say that when I'M the one raising them. I'M the one who loves them. I'M the one who reads my sister bed time stories to distract her from the yelling in the living room. I'M the one who holds my brother while he has panic attacks on a daily basis. I'M the one who tells them that everything will be okay. They're not her kids. They're MINE and I'll protect them. I don't care what I have to do.
I try to keep the peace in the house for my siblings but sometimes I cant. Sometimes I have to yell and scream and fight back. It's probably traumatizing for them but I do what I can to avoid it. One day moms boyfriend tried to touch me. I wouldnt let him. He didnt like that. I hit him in the face with a pie dish I was holding and tried to run out the front door so he grabbed me and shoved me against a wall. Then mom got home. He let me go when he saw her. I guess he thinks its okay to hit me in front of her but SA is for when shes not around. He hasnt tried to touch me again yet. Its been a while since that happened.
I dont have friends over. I'd never put them in danger by bringing them to my house. I have a good friend who happens to be a boy and one day mom's boyfriend saw us together and called me a whore. I loved having to explain to my friends who the drunk middle aged man screaming at me was. They offer to let me sleep over and hang out at their houses alot to give me an escape. I'd love to but I cant leave my siblings alone at the house with you-know-who. I struggle to even let them sleep in their own rooms. It stresses me out to not have them within eyesight. Sometimes they do sleep with me though. I think we all sleep better together.
I love my friends. I hate my mom. Shes useless. 1 year and 8 months until I turn 18. I'll have to have a custody battle with her so I can take my siblings with me when I leave. I couldnt leave them with her. She'll never get better. She doesnt love us.
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Hello , I'm Sophia and I am a therapist and I'm here to help everyone and give them advice . I've just read all of that and it sounds like you are going through a bad time . My advice to you is like you said , try to keep the peace . Maybe try and talk to your mum and just tell her how you feel .
She might turn away and ignore what you said . But you have to remember things will get easier . As you grow up , you can leave that home and you can start your own life .
Your siblings will be scared about the situation and your mum doesn't approve of them coming to you for support but they are better off coming to you . It's better to speak to someone then not speak . If you have any worries or issues there are people you can call . Child line , they are good to call because they can get you real help . If you can't do that , then you can talk to a trusted adult in your school . Maybe a teacher that you know you can rely on .
This is my advice and I've seen lots of people who are going through what you are going through and I give the same advice to all of them .
I do really hope things get better for you and you can start to live a happy life . Taking custody of your siblings is the best thing you can ever do to keep them safe .
Hope this helped and I do feel for you
Replyyou should take legal actions asap.
ReplyThis guy you are talking about is piece of shit. You should to do some part time jobs and gain knowledge to get a good job and when you have had some savings please get out of that house with your siblings. Be strong love
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