the 1 before the 1

I'm not the one, I'm the girl

you're with when you meet the one.

I'm the one who watches as your replies become s

lower and slower making my stomach drop

and time feel like it's not moving until one day

you just stop replying all together

I'm the one who helped you with

your last heartbreak,

let you take things so slow to heal.

The one who helped you heal.

She's the one you healed for

You yearn for her

And i'll never be her

I'll never get an apology

Or explanation

I'll even be the crazy girlfriend to all

your friends for begging you

to put effort into our still on going relationship

You get a victim story out of my heartbreak

And I still get called crazy.

She's got it all

And i've got nothing

As sad as it is I still look for you in guys

I want them to act like how you did

in the start of our relationship

When I thought I was still the one.