vent (?)

it’s her birthday and all i can think about is how she ruined my life because i wanted her to love me so badly. i completely changed myself just so she would love me and it was never enough, no matter how much i changed, but SHE was the one who told me to change. she blocked me on everything. i want to be me again. i hate her so much. i never want to hear her name again, i hope she’s doing well in life but i never want to think of her again. i want to forget all the hurt and the times i forgave her for things she never apologized for.

it is my fault for giving her that kind of power over me, though. i could've did what i wanted instead of what i thought she wanted.

please never talk to me again. please let me forget.