Arguements

I feel like my parents made me ''weird''. Living in an Asian family, I grew up with my grandparents, everything was so nice you know? When I moved in with my parents to a new country, everything changed. I feel like my parents aren't my parents. They just provide me food and a roof to live under. There is no guidance, no support, no fun, everyone does their own things under this roof. I don't feel like part of the family.

In arguments, you know, the parents are supposed to shout and be angry to make the child listen to them and follow what they say. But my dad traumatised me too much, I don't give a fuck about any threats anymore. Their biggest punishment is to take what I cared about the most away from me and basically mock me, my mistakes and past. Everything I use to care about, contacting my grandparents, money I earned, things my grandparents bought for me to use, my phone, tv, entertainment, they just take it away from me. I used to care, I use to cry, now I am numb, I don't care anymore, taking whatever away from me, I don't care anymore, I don't feel anything.

The threats on throwing stuff at me, kicking me out of the house. My dad uses to drag me out of the house and tell me to fucking disappear, and he doesn't give a fuck about me. I don't care anymore, when I was younger, I use to cry about it, a lot. Every time I think about it, I cry. I used to think, why is my friend's parents so nice?

The angrier my dad is, the happier and more thrilled I am. I find his shouts and threats funny, and I find him pathetic. I know, the more often a person get mad, the risk of diseases and sickness increases. HAHAHA, so funny, he won't live that long if he is always angry. All I care about now is to save enough money and get out of this hell. I don't want him in my sight, at all. I don't care.

He never listens to me; he never has rationality. He says, if you are living under my roof, you have to listen to me and follow my rules, or else. you get the fuck out of my house.

Sure, I need to thank him for him bringing me to Australia and providing me with basic needs. But that's it. He never liked me before I was born, because he dislikes children. HAHAAHAH, SCREW HIM