Alone

Its so embarrassing wondering about in the corridors at school, waiting for the bell to ring and acting as if you've got somewhere to be, when really, you haven't.

I just wanted a friendgroup again, supportive, joking around, laughing with them, always having their company.

If I can't have that then why can't I atleast have a good relation with my older brother? People around me, their older siblings are so nice to them, protective of them, loving towards their siblings. Mine sexually harassed me. And some how, everyone still prefers him. They all love him better than me. Parents, aunties, cousins.

Looking back at old photos of me and my older brother, I cry. Because around that time he did THAT to me. Young me didn't know what was happening. Young me got told it was her fault when she knew what happened, and she knew it wasn't her fault AT ALL.