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**Blue Skies, Fear in My Eyes**
Verse 1:
I wake up and the morning's bright,
Blue skies paint my bedroom white,
But beneath the surface, something ain't right,
Fear in my eyes, it's hard to hide.
Pre-Chorus:
These sunny days, they can't change my mind,
Cloaked in shadows I can't leave behind,
In this endless battle, my heart resides,
Blue skies above, but inside I cry.
Chorus:
Blue skies, fear in my eyes,
I'm caught between two different lives,
A smile on my lips, but emotions run wild,
Blue skies, fear in my eyes.
Verse 2:
Walking down the street, sun on my face,
But the panic wells up, I can't embrace,
The noise of the world makes my heart race,
Fear in my eyes, my safe space erased.
Pre-Chorus:
These sunny days, they can't understand,
To them, it's just life flowing as planned,
But inside this storm, I try to withstand,
Blue skies above, but my fears expand.
Chorus:
Blue skies, fear in my eyes,
I'm caught between two different lives,
A smile on my lips, but emotions run wild,
Blue skies, fear in my eyes.
Bridge:
Will I ever find peace within my own mind?
Or am I destined to always be confined?
Lost in this ocean of anxiety's tide,
Blue skies above, but my fears won't subside.
Chorus:
Blue skies, fear in my eyes,
I'm caught between two different lives,
A smile on my lips, but emotions run wild,
Blue skies, fear in my eyes.
Outro:
Blue skies, fear in my eyes,
In this battle, I won't compromise,
I'll face the storm, let the winds collide,
Blue skies above, I'll conquer the fear inside.
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hi u ok?
ReplyYeah, why?
Replyyour other thing we were talking on dissapered
ReplyMy dad found out and he took my cromebook, iḿ borrowing the teachers. So i probably wont be on much.
Replyoh ok :(
Replydisappeared*
ReplyHe does not like me talking to strangers.
Replyyeah i get that
ReplyIḿ grounded cause of the thing from yesterday morning. my sister got her phone took and grounded from her tv.
Replywhy should u be grounded
ReplyIdek.
Replyim really sorry
ReplyIts okay. But iḿ gonna get off cause iḿ sure my step mom is stalking my history rn.
Replyok. have a good day :)
Replyok. have a good day :)
ReplyHey.
Replyhey u ok?
Replyi hope ur ok
ReplyShould i lie or tell the truth??
Replywhatever u feel comfortable doing (its me on my other account)
ReplyI'm not doing so well. Um. I think i might be trans and it makes me sad cause i know my dad will never accept me and i've been thinking about suicide lately because of my dad being mentally abusive and what hunter did to me and its all just too much...
ReplyPlus i'm scared about how my gf will respond to me being trans..
Replyomg dont be scared. if ur gf doesn't support u then she isn't the one. i'm always here if you need me. i accept you and i know many other people will too. suicide is not the anwser pls. it will be ok.
ReplyI won't be on today but i just wanted to let you know i'm okay.
Replyokay I'm glad ur ok. have a great day at school :)
ReplyHey. Just checking in on you.
ReplyHow are you?
Replyim ok! thank you so much for checking in <333 i have my puppy when i get sad lol
ReplyThats good lol.
Replyi hope ur doing ok <33
ReplyHey. I am but i'm not. If you know what i mean.
Replyyeah i get that. honestly feel the same way
ReplyMy dads in the hospital again...And like always my step family is taking advantage of that and are treating me like shit.
Replyomfg i am so sorry. just know that ur step family has no right to be treating you like shit. just don't listen to them. whenever i didn't like being home i would just blast music and do something. i'm really so sorry.
ReplyYeah me too. I relapsed yesterday. and the weirdest thing is that while he was in the hospital when i didn't know yet, I was singing "And hold me while you wait, I wish that I was good enough (Hold me while you wait) If only I could wake you up (Hold me while you wait) My love, my love, my love, my love, Won't you stay a while? (Hold me while you wait) I wish you cared a little more (Hold me while you wait) I wish you'd told me this before (Hold me while you wait) My love, my love, my love, my love, Won't you stay a while? (Hold me while you wait)" over and over and i had no clue he was in the hospital.
ReplyI haven't prayed in a while, but last night i prayed my heart out for my dad...
Replythat's beautiful. i try to pray every night and i'm glad u did <3
ReplyMe too but i have a really bad feeling that something bad is gonna happen...
ReplyI'm literally wearing ALL of my crosses right now...
ReplyI'll pray for u guys <33 it will be okay no matter what happens
ReplyI really appreciate that...thank you.. <3
ReplyI started to write another song.
Replyomg <333 do you have a title?? i have been writing poems today
ReplyNo. I haven't posted it yet. But i can share what i have with you. If you want.
Replyi would love thatttt
ReplyAnd when i was young, my father told me
That when i see, only one set of footprints in the sand
It was then that he carried me
Even though i know the truth
That he is safe within heaven
And although i don't ever wanna lose him
I know that one day, i will have to let him go
And i'll hold him in my heart
I'll spread his ashes, along the sand, we walked
In honor of his love, and his word
ReplyTHAT IS SO GOOD OMG
ReplyI have to go. ttyl. bye. <3
Replybyeee <3 ur gonna be ok :))
ReplyHey. My dad got out of the hospital and he's okay.
Replyomg so happy!!! <3
ReplyMe too! <3
ReplyI prayed again last night. asking god to forgive me of my sins and thanking him for everything i have and making sure my dad was okay and then i asked him to help me get through school so that i can go to college and i already notice a change.
ReplyI also asked him to make sure that me and everyone i care about is safe and doing well.
ReplyI'm so happy for u!!! That's amazing <333
ReplyThanks. Its very amazing.
Replythings always work out you just have to make it through the tough stuff :))
ReplyOkay. so. do you know the song record player??
Replyi heard it yes!
ReplyHave you listened to the neurodivergent bilateral??
Replyno but i just searched it up lol!
ReplyListen with both earbuds so you understand why i listen to it.
ReplyOf that song
Replythats so weirddd
ReplyI have neurodiversity (basically means my brain works + processes stuff differently) and i have to listen to stuff like that cause if i don't it can overwhelm my mind.
Replyaw im sorry :(
ReplyIts not a bad thing its just unique.
Replyyeah :)
Replyhope ur doing ok
ReplyI am. I started to write a documentary novel over fall break and its called ¨How to get away from a murderer" and its obviously about murderers.
Replyomg thats so cool!!
ReplyYeah. I can't wait to finish it. I'm also writing a horror story about a boyfriend who tries to kill his girlfriend in her sleep with a chainsaw but she gets away and runs into an alleyway, well, he knocks her out and takes her to a cheap motel, hiding her in a suitcase, and ties her up with duct tape but the cops get called by a neighbor and he goes to jail and put on death row but he breaks out and burns her house down while she's sleeping and basically either way she ends up dead.
ReplyTHATS A LOT TO TAKE IN LOL
ReplySorry lol.
ReplyOMG DONT BE SORRY ITS JUST A REALLY CRAZY STORY (WHICH IS A GOOD THING)
ReplyOkay lol. Its for my NaNoWriMo novel soo.
Replyi love how my school just emailed abt the NaNoWriMo thing at my school
ReplyI'm gonna include a HUGE plot twist where the girlfriends brother becomes a serial killer to get revenge on his sisters murdering in the end of the book and then i'll leave it as a cliffhanger lol.
ReplyAHHH UR SO CREATIVE
ReplyThanks lol. i know.
Replyhows are u doing
ReplyI'm good, you?
Replytbh im not okay
ReplyTbh me niether, whats up w/ you??
Replytbh i really don't know. wbu??
ReplyTurns out my "girlfriend" didn't think i was serious about the relationship, like she thought i was joking and so basically it was a fake relationship.
Replyare u serious that literally is so messed up wtf
Replyim so sorry
Replyhow do u feel abt it
ReplyI'm angry, and kinda hurt. And you remember when i told you about hunter?? Well he's back after two weeks and i don't know how i feel about him being back.
Replyi dont remeber hunter???
ReplyHe's the one who put his hands on me and didn't get in trouble.
Replyi would be so scared if he was back
Replyim praying for u
Replystoppp it got flagged :((
Replystoppp it got flagged :((
ReplyI mean like, i feel scared but at the same time i don't know how i feel. Plus, my hands are shaking really bad and i can't stop them from shaking.
Replyi just wish i could give u a hug rn.
ReplyI'm fine, i promise. Also, have you read the song i posted the other day??
ReplyThe name of the post is "I wrote another song! Its called golden boy. (its not finished yet)"
ReplyI DID!!!!! I ALWAYS KEEP WATCH FOR UR SONGS!!!! I LOVED IT SO MUCH
ReplyThanks lol. Ur such a fangirl of my songs, aren't you? lol.
ReplyOFC!!!! i loved song writing i just am so tired and don't want to do anything anymore but maybe i should start again :)))
ReplyI think you should. Also, is it just me or is the way i worded seem, a little dominant and sexual?? Lol. It might just be me.
Replynah i didn't think of it like that
ReplyIts probably just cause i'm dirty minded and gay, its not that i like you, i barely know you but you get the point.
Replyyes i do LMAO
ReplyLmfao, i feel like i made things awkward.
ReplyOMG NO U DID NOT LOL AT ALL
ReplyGood to know lol.
Replyhows life at home?
ReplyAnnoying but its whatever. My step mom finds every little thing to get on to me for. When she got home yesterday, i was in my room and she said i'd been in there for four hours and needed to come out. I was reading and had fallen asleep and a few minutes later i decided to put my book up and turn off the light and go back to sleep. I didn't expect to sleep for FOUR hours, i only was gonna sleep for a little while longer but i guess i was really tired.
Replydon't listen to her. she doesn't know u
ReplyI won't and i know. She thinks she does though.
Replywell she doesn't
ReplyHell no she doesn't. My momma RAISED me and she don't even KNOW me that well.
ReplyYOU only know YOURSELF
Replybut sometimes i dont even know if i know myself so like im lost
ReplyFelt that. Random thought, I need to find another girlfriend lol.
ReplyBRUH SAME. i'm so lonely and it sucks so bad
ReplyIf i knew you in person i could say we could get together but k'yknow.
ReplyYA LOL u dont even know what i look like lol
ReplyI know lol.
ReplyI posted another song. Go check it out when you get a chance.
Replyur so talented
Replyi fucking mean it.
ReplyThank you lol.
Replyim really bored lol
ReplyI'm sorry lol.
ReplyOkay, so theres this guy that i'm friends with and yesterday when we hung out i told him that i liked him and he said he knew it already (i'm not that good at hiding it) and i told him that he's the only guy i've liked in a while and he likes me too. Not like Hunter did, Hunter liked me for my body, But Tyler, He loves me for me and i can't stop thinking about him cause he kept flexing his arms and hands, and hands with visible veins are hella attraction.
Replygooooodddddd u can pull people fr
ReplyLol. I'm aware cause all the guys get mad at me when i pull their gf's lmfao.
ReplyLMFAOOOO THATS FUNNY
ReplyI KNOW RIGHT LMFAO!
ReplyGo read the comments on the song i posted today.
Replybruh-
ReplyYeah. I'm glad my songs help people though. That latest comment really got to my heart.
ReplyBut can i vent to you??
Replyofc!!! <33
ReplyOkay, so my step family is acting like i'm not even there and this morning i closed to the door when my step brother was walking towards the door and when he came out, i was still on the porch because my bad got stuck on the screen door handle and he said something about me knowing he was coming out the door and then called me "Fucking idiot". Once i got my bag unstuck, i threw my stuff in the car, i slammed the car door went into the house and slammed the front door and told my dad that he needed to tell him to chill out and i yelled "He called me a fucking idiot" and i was so angry that my entire body was shaking and my eyes burned with tears and i cried silently the whole way to the school in the backseat of the car cause of it. I'm not suicidal but i can't and don't want to, live like this..
Replyit got flagged
ReplyOkay so basically, my step family is acting like i'm not there and this morning i closed the door when my step brother was walking towards it and when he finally walked out he said something about me knowing that he was about to walk out the door and i was still standing there cause my bag got stuck on the screen door handle and before we walked off the porch, he called me a "fucking idiot" so i threw my stuff in the car and slammed the door shut and i walked in the house slamming the front door as well and i told my dad what happened and that he called me a fucking idiot and that he needed to tell him to chill out. By the time i got in the house my anger was so bad that i was shaking really bad and on the way to school i was silently crying in the back seat.
ReplyMAN IT KEEPS GETTING FLAGGED
ReplyOkay so basically, my step family is acting like i'm not there and this morning i closed the door when my step brother was walking towards it and when he finally walked out he said something about me knowing that he was about to walk out the door and i was still standing there cause my bag got stuck on the screen door handle and before we walked off the porch, he called me a "fucking idiot" so i threw my stuff in the car and slammed the door shut and i walked in the house slamming the front door as well and i told my dad what happened and that he called me a fucking idiot and that he needed to tell him to chill out. By the time i got in the house my anger was so bad that i was shaking really bad and on the way to school i was silently crying in the back seat.
ReplyIf it happens again i'll just make a post about it.
ReplyIts called "just venting"
ReplyIm so sorry. ur family literally has no care in the world
ReplyYeah i know. I was talking to my dad last night he said that if he won the lottery me and him would be leaving them.
Replyim here for u whenver u need. this must be so hard
ReplyIt is but i don't really know what to do about this.
Replyif it gets really bad u should tell someone more. if u want me to do anything i will
ReplyIs there even anything you can do??
ReplyIs there even anything you can do??
ReplyAfter this school year whether i pass or fail i might try to go live with my mom again...
ReplyI mean like, All of this is making my mental health bad again...I CRIED myself to sleep last night...And i didn't eat dinner last night...I cried so hard and i haven't even cried in a while...
Replyidek what to do. i feel so bad. there isn't enough words in this world to comfort u. i just want u to be ok.
ReplyI'm actually doing a bit better. I picked up some weekend shifts at a groomers/daycare on saturdays and sundays from 7:30am to 5:00pm. Between school and my new job i'll be out of the house as much as possible and this tuesday i have a halloween party to go to so yeah. Maybe things will get better.
Replyoh i'm so happy!!!! i'm glad you can take a break from home <3
ReplyMe too. They don't argue or anything when i'm there, which just proves I'M the problem but idrc that much. I'm not gonna let that ruin my mood.
ReplyI think that the reason i want to work is one, so that i don't have to be home all the time, Two, I want my dad to have a reason to be proud of me. That's just a hypothesis but i think it might be true. I'm not too sure though. What do you think?
Replyi get that. i do stuff like that to just make my parents proud. but i just want YOU to love what your doing
ReplyI do love what i'm doing. 100%.
ReplyY'know, my and my dad had another argument last night and at some point i slipped up and said that nobody wants me here and he said that i don't have anywhere to go because my mom doesn't want me and all i can think is how she NEVER even wanted me to begin with...I was LITERALLY born a mistake...An outcast...A burden if i must...And it breaks my heart...
Replyyou were born for a reason. even if it wasn't for them. you are loved.
ReplyI know i was born for a reason but i haven't quite figured it out yet. And i don't feel loved but i believe you.
Replyi promise you, you will eventually. <33 it just takes time to feel it
ReplyI need to find a way to get out of the house permanently, like I would live somewhere else and be on my own. I might try for early emancipation but i'm not sure yet. And i would be tried as an adult if i do.
Replyyou will figure everything out. i'm praying for you <33
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