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its been a while. im feeling kinda lonely these days without texting you. it feels different. it feels lonely. it feels empty. i feel alone. sometimes i come to my senses that maybe im the only one whos thinking that you were interested at me, like i was interested with you. maybe im just telling that to myself to make me feel much better about the fact that i like you. after all, i always felt like i loved myself when im with you. why? when im with my friend group, they always have smth all in common, well i dont mean i dont also have smth in common with them, but someone as introverted as me, basically i always do gaming and laugh at my own humor. i dont do trends like my friends, i dont even do tiktok. they called me weird for not having that app. so when they talk abt various topics, i dont feel like im relating to them at all, bcz i was "different", i was "weird". no matter how many friends i had, i cant be myself. i just smiled at them and just listened to what they say. suddenly, i met you. someone i can relate to, someone who can laugh at my own humor as well. i cant say i just find you interesting bcz we almost have the same personality. i liked you bcz i like the way you can be yourself. where you dont care abt what people thinks abt you. the way you can be so free and handle such people like that. you were never afraid to be urself. i admired that. u had such a kind personality, one that i always loved. someone who was such a gentleman, someone who was into music, into gaming, yet you were also smart. i admired you so much. but these days, i felt giving up. i told myself maybe i liked you too much that i was losing my love for myself. i make fantasize too much and i dont even know what to do anymore. i wanted to blame you. i wanted to ask you. why do you have to update me as if we were smth? i dont even know if you like me. why would you spend so much time talking to me? why would you tell me the kind of songs you were interested in? why would you make me fall so hard? i really wanted to blame you. but ofc, the blames on me. you were just too nice. too friendly perhaps. you may have just been enjoying our talk. and nothing else. maybe u just think of us as friends. we werent smth else. apparently im the only whos thinking a lot. who was thinking that you liked me as well. yet i didnt want to stay away. i told myself to wait even if it takes years. just for you, i would wait. even if its painful. even if i get hurt a lot. i would wait. but that sounded stupid. why. why would i like you out of all people? why would i be head over heels for you? should i rlly just give up on you?
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You may as well because you won't use a phone and I won't use 3rd party apps or websites. I'm not budging on this one. You come to me and show me. It's been long enough
Replywell i meant, i do use a phone. i just dont use tiktok or sum
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