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Imagine how all the song you sing one day, it makes sense and appear to describe the perfect situation that you are living. It feels like a storm over your head.
Last night, my friends asked me if i could do a little "pre-party" before we all go out, i answered inmediatly that i couldn´t because my parents told me no because some problems that were in the past with this pre-parties and my brother. Hours pass and we didn´t talk anything more, but i saw a picture that they all meet up without me and a friend. That was the ponit that my tears just dropped. I always try to do my best and help them in everything, but these days i was tired that it was always me predispossing my house for everything, but not only that, i always give my homework, i give them particualar classes when they don´t understand, i listen to them, i try to be my best. But, what if we wre friends just because of that? Because it was a interest. I was just that, a favor, with no comeback.
I defend them for so many things, now i think how they really see me? Did they the same thing for me?
I try to see where i fail. Maybe it was the other night when we try to meet up, one of them propose to go to his/her house, how unexpected he/she cancelled, now they want to meet up at my house. I refuse because, how i said i was tired, it was always in my house, but maybe i was egoist. Maybe i don´t talk to much, or i talk TOO much. How do i know?
The tear dropped the glass when a message interruped a terrible night at this point.
It was them. They needed money to buy a bottle of vodka. THAT WAS IT. it was always the same.
It was a friendship or a excuse to get something. I felt used, i never imagine how a person that i care so much did this.
All my walk home was this feeling that don´t know what i did wrong. It was my fualt? Because how it is possible that all of them where toghether except me and my best friend. Maybe we were. But we weren´t invited to any of this hang out. I feel confused, i feel drowned in my thoughts. I can say that i've never felt so down.
It was a instant moment, that in my brain comes a lyrics: "It's me, hi, I'm the problem". How great, Taylor Swift did it again, she described one of many lives. I want to know how other people see it. I didn´t tell to my parents why i went home so early, i told them they were so many people that you couldn´t move, just becuase again i don´t want to put "my friends" in a situation that they can judge them.
So, am i the problem? Should i change?
srry for the grammar, it's late and english isn't my first language. I just wanna say it and get it free. Maybe i'm being dramatic but i want to let it go
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im sorry you had to experience that. you deserve to be treated better by your friends. also your English is good.
ReplyHi there honestly let me answer ur question u r not the problem darling u r just a kind soul that trusts easily it's them who have a problem in their head for not valuing a diamond like and trust me u don't need them they need u and u will get someone who truly cares soon cause u deserve it so don't waste ur precious tears on such shitheads and cheer up u r amazing 🖤
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