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i have been kinda thinking if this misery is ever going
to end? you maybe thinking which misery right?well, you don't know me
well which is why i am not going to tell you and give you details; just know
that i have been going some rough patches can say sudden waves also but
its been so long since i have been like these and idk for how long i have to
pretend this! sometimes this pretending is hard that i feel like just to give up
yeah seriously like just end everything and all peace.
but i can't do that na?
what will happen to everyone?do they care?
does it make any difference to them? are they going to miss me?
like is there anyone who actually cares?
well this is just bullshit thoughts that my intrusive thoughts is playing with my mind.
to be honest what i think is that THERE IS NOBODY TO SAVE US; WE JUST HAVE TO
MAKE OURSELF STRONGER/BRAVE AND HEAL OURSELVES ON OUR OWN RIGHT?
like bhai who is going to come and say to you:-"let me take your all worries and stress
and make you stronger." it doesnt happen in real life. we just have ourselves thats it.
so to be brave and stronger accept everything. YEAH! just accept everything that is
been hurting you because when you accept that this is just going to be like this your mind
will react less (bcoz you will get used to it and it won't terrify anymore)but the thing with
accepting comes with a cost. what cost? you won't be able to enjoy or be excited anymore.
bcoz once you reach the thought of accepting the things nothing will excite you anymore.
also second thing just say to yourself that this is just some test that god is taking(if you are not
athiest) like seriously trust god. his intuition is never wrong, he is putting you through this
so that you can learn something. he is just teaching us and as a student it's our duty
to obey and respect his work/test no matter how much hard it is because see;
see it from academic point of view 'when you score a good marks in hard test you feel so much
joy that like woww i cracked the hardest exam of my life(but how you passed that exam is only you
know! all the sleepless nights,all the efforts,all the foods on your table that had been cold bcoz you were
so busy in studying) in the process of achieving a good marks there is always a cost.
so maybe think of from that perspective that if this is going wrong maybe god is doing for the betterment
of myself? see this is how much crap i talk.
i get upset and i console myself bcoz i dont have anyone else who will
support me. anyways, have a great fucking LIFE:)
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ReplyI don't really believe in god but the common thought is that His plan is so big we can't comprehend his purpose. Not really a fan of the concept of some heaven daddy ignoring the horrible crimes of society- while letting complete monsters thrive. But if there's some overworked, insufficiently staffed department up there that can't keep up with its own records, who try to oversee karma itself- that would be comforting.
Back on topic, yours is not a matter of needing support but understanding. Which is theoretically impossible because we don't understand our own selves fully even as we know all our own thoughts and experiences, how is someone else even a mind reader, supposed to know how we truly feel?
On the other hand, we constantly leave trace of ourselves in this world as long as we live in it. In your example, notes would be left behind from endless study, playdates missed, pencils become short from continued use and of course, your cold uneaten food is leftover and maybe returned uneaten- all things that someone who would care enough to notice these things about you, would notice.
Often it's not that nobody cares but that people you want to care are not, or that they're not caring in a way that you want or need them to..
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