I'm tired

I feel exhausted. Despite having time and opportunities to what I love. I also have a job where I do things I don't like and takes so much time because I need the money. It's hard to live in my country where my dream job is undervalued and unstable. I feel so busy and overwhelmed and I'm trying my best to balance it all, but I'm moving so slow. I'm so distracted. I'm so tired. I sometimes feel inadequate, ungrateful, and sad. I want to seize the day but usually I just get through. I want to keep moving, keeping doing, keep going but everyday I feel like doing nothing. Nothing. I'd rather do nothing. Even the things I love. And I hate myself for that. And then there are wars happening around the world, confusion happening in social media. I don't know what to do with all these complexities. I just have to put this out there. I'm so tired.