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So recently I started at this new school and I don’t know anyone. All my friends have moved away and are now living somewhere else, so I’m pretty much alone. I’m fine with that because I consider myself a “loner”. I mean I love spending time with myself and doing what I want and being alone on general, but when they were still here I had this sense of security that whenever I felt like having out other people or doing something as a group they were always there, but now that’s gone. I am an introverted person but with the right crowd I can become extroverted. That’s not always the case tho. For example this new school year I because friends with one group, but to be honest I don’t think they fit me that well. I am not that comfortable around them and honestly get kinda bored. There also this big language barrier, since I’m still new here. This has brought my confidence to a very low level. I want to become friends with other people from my class but I just get so nervous that I don’t talk. Even if I try to I stutter or forget words. It’s so embarrassing I don’t know what to do. I had the same problem when I was in middle school, but the past couple of years it had become so much better. I was very social but this year it’s like that again. Besides all that this new school requires a lot of work, I am studying everyday until 11pm and get only 6 hours of sleep every night so I’m very exhausted. It’s just been very frustrating and it’s not at all what I expected the school year to be like. Now I don’t know what to do. I just get in my head so much and care too much about what others think. I’m not that bad looking so I get some attention from people but it makes me so shy and uncomfortable that I just kinda ignore them, instead of approaching and communicating with them. Some groups in the class have already formend and now I’m afraid that if I do want to join them they would think I’m an extra and don’t belong. I did join them two times and we talked but as I said because of the language barrier I just tend to stand and there and just nod because sometimes I don’t understand or just don’t know what to say, so it’s kinda awkward. I just feel so uncomfortable and the crowd that surrounds really doesn’t suit me. I miss my friends and feel kinda lonely even if I’m with one classmate I did make friends with. I know I should work on my confidence but the past years wasn’t like this at all, I keep comparing myself so much because it’s a competitive school and as mentioned the language barrier is making me loose my confidence.
I don’t know what to do. I just felt the need to share this with someone. If you have any suggestions please feel free to share, thank you.
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Going to a new school has caused you to lose your confidence and whatever this language barrier is it will do you good to learn the other language. You write English very well so what is this language barrier?
ReplyYes, it’s probably that. I’ve been learning the language for three years so of course it’s not perfect. I’ve been told that I’m actually not that bad at it, but I just can’t communicate with my classmates because I get too much in my head about it and so I just stay quiet.
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