Tired of Tears for Someone that never Saw me

I won't try to reform you,

I've opened my eyes again,

I'm tired of feeling like I can save something,

I rather let it burn,

Telling me you'll change it's a tactical manipulation to have me secured.

Telling me it's your intention to be someone better for me it's a lie, it's another manipulation.

I don't act well when someone is lying to my face,

I don't act well when someone tries to manipulate me when they know I have goodness in my heart,

My goodness is not something you can play with and suddenly expect me to be the same,

I rather be the reflection of your own wickedness before handing to you another piece of my heart and soul,

I am willing to be the evil you carry within you before coming back to you with an open bleeding heart, expecting to be loved.

And when I say I will be the wickedness you are now and always,

Not to be in competition ,

Not to harm my loved ones,

But to stop you,

Stop you from keep taking all goodness from me,

Stop you from keep playing with my light,

You are coming too close that you're starting to burn,

I am too much light to your self provoked darkness,

I am too much for someone so plastic like you,

I don't want to reform you anymore,

Before I was a little girl that could only see love,

But now, I am a woman and I see you for who you are,

And I cannot unsee it.

And don't want to.

I don't believe you. No one bit.

I'm tired of believing in your redemption.

Go.

Loose yourself in your addictions,

Sleep with countless women that are to your disposal,

Marry who you want,

Have many babies as you want,

Generate as much wealth and legacy as you want,

I'm not gonna stop you nor beg you,

This is who you are,

A Player.

All I wanted was love and you preyed on me like a crocodile in the river.

Now is you who's gonna be preyed on,

And believe me when I tell you,

I am a better hunter than you.

You thought crying was everything I had.

Maybe in the past you could fool me,

Maybe I fell for your traps and lies,

Yes, I made you feel powerful.

Cheated on me for the confidence that my love was giving you,

Flied so high for my light,

Now I put you down.

I'll never give you what you want.

You tricked me.

You lied to me.

You manipulated me.

Played with my innocence

Seduced me to get what you wanted and then you dropped me like a bag of meat when fame came knocking at your door.

Yes, before you got everything and I got nothing.

But now, I can't even look at you without wanting to puke.

I feel nausea by just thinking about you.

All you will get from me now is nothing but brutal cruelty.

As well as I can be lovely and supportive and seductive,

I can be as infernal, as wicked and vengeful as I want.

And believe me, you haven't seen that side of me.

You've seen me in decay and despair.

You haven't seen me in full power.

And that version is far stronger than what you think it could be.

You said you loved me in my darkness,

But you never loved me in my strongest,

Because my stronger aspect couldn't benefit you and could see right through you.

Seriously,

You don't know who you're messing with.

You truly are a fool.

I'm not scared anymore.

I've lost the ability to feel scared for you.

You are truly evil.

But not as clever, stronger and beautiful as me.

You are no match for me.

I was with you because I couldn't see my worth.

Now I see it as clear as day,

I don't need you anymore.

Save your tears for another day,

Like what your favorite song says.

I can't take seriously to someone that listens to The Weeknd.

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