Selfish Cancer

When I looked at my birth chart, it all made sense as to why people continuously flock towards me and as I shared this information with you. I could tell that you were jealous because you disregarded everything that I said and then expected me to gravitate towards you. You wanted to hold the same power and presence as my chart did, but you can't and you couldn't. At first, I thought you didn't hear me and then when I asked again, you deliberately ignored me and changed the topic yet again. That's when I told myself that this wasn't the space that I needed to be in and you truly weren't interested in being my friend. You exhibit a lot of selfish qualities and are envious of my lifestyle even though you chose to be a willing participant in your life. You chose not to pursue post secondary education. You chose not to move out of the hood and are still living in the same place where your mother gave birth to you 31 years ago. You chose not to travel and are still choosing not to do so. You said that you were a direct communicator, but you're not. You said that you were interested in forming healthier relationships, but you're just stuck in the past. Making fake accounts and spying on people that you met in 2009 and 2010. You would constantly change the topic in order to fit your needs and your criterion because you truly are uncomfortable being in the student position. I truly thought that we could've had a friendship, but you're constantly ruminating in the past and aren't actively living in the present. You're not exercising and you aren't getting your health checked out, but constantly complaining about your health issues.

I knew that you were really uncomfortable because you stopped sending voice notes and would only text, but then you still wanted me to engage in sending you voice notes. You became very bossy and demanding and even tried controlling the narrative and that's what made me realize that we're not operating on the same frequency.

You even tried repackaging my own ideas and pitching them back to me, as if you had discovered something new. You weren't trying to give me credit for anything, but would use terms and lingos that I did.

I'll never understand how someone can get upset at another person for living a different life than them. When you sent me the two emails ignoring my previous voice notes about my offer to hang out, I cut you off without hesitation. in your last email, you had proven to me that you weren't an active listener, you weren't an effective communicator, you are extremely selfish, lazy and insecure. You fail to practice humility and that also explains why your life is exactly the way that it is. here I am actively planning out my next moves and working towards my goals and you were trying to suck me back into doing hobbies that interested you, but you needed me to kickstart everything because you lack the ability to make connections to your own personal life and the celebrity birth charts.

YOU ARE STAGNANT AND OLD BECAUSE OF YOUR MINDSET. I was going to say something, but I realized that if you didn't see the value in at least responding to me and fyi: NO is a complete sentence. I concluded that you weren't worth speaking to because you would most likely ignore and or disappear until you could find something else to try and deter the conversation from your ghetto behaviour. Nothing had changed about you and in fact you were in a worse off position from when I first met you and you failed to see it. I have no regrets and it is your loss. I blocked you, deleted all of the emails and unsubscribed from you as well. You are an example of what I'm not interested in being and that is "stuck". Instead of seeing the opportunities in front of you, you choose to dwell on the past about people, places and things that you cannot change. Yet still having the audacity to get upset with people like myself who are educated, have different life experiences and those who choose to learn from everyone and everything around them.

Thank you for being an example of what I am not interested in being.