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I don't really want to go to sleep angry at you mom and dad I mean you all didn't have to act how you did towards me but I guess I don't have much of a choice. I've had a lot of thoughts going though my head.
They're acting mentally ill they do so every so often more or lessyet mom said a day or so ago "you're a little bit mental". You know given the trauma abuse physical mental verbal abuse and all the rest b s I've been put through over the years its only by God's grace I'm sane at all. I don't want to go to sleep angry. I gave to get up for an appointment in he morning. Of course mom n dad would come against me on a night I really need sleep.
Nobody apologizes seldomly mom never dad. He's an ass tonight. IDC good don't talk to me play the victim despite you being the one who was a pr!ck to me for no reason. Mom snapped at me was hateful to me multiple times and denied it. Invalidated me always wanting to defend the other person like dad who makes me mad to begin with it was actually her first then him. The house feels bitter angy as can be. Dads low on drugs because he abused them a lot of them in a drunk this last week (and how is thsty my fault?????) He trashed us for no reason saying we're sorrier than sh!t when I do almost everything here and he sits in that recliner 98 to 99 percent of the time smoking cigs and watching TV. And his drug addiction isn't my problem but he always makes it my problem because he abuses a medicine that I take as well ONLY I DON'T ABUSE IT he DOES 😠🙄. I actually need it he just abuses it and it makes him a monster with other drugs at the same time. He's super moody even sober. Lately tbh mom is too. Some days they're literal joy drainers. Their parents weren't like this. Far as I know. Of course they weren't drunks or addicts either. What I want is them quit being mean for no reason and them a thorn in my side. They know how to treat others right. Dad kisses his drug dealers ass talks to them like honey. Me alot not the best. He's only nice to me when he wants something. Aka my medicine. Seems like he's never gonna learn with his drug addiction or he dont care he knows better he ate near a months worth of meds in over a week. If I had means I wouldnt be here that's for sure. I don't know what else to say. Just I wish I had a better happier caring family.
Dad used to treat his other acquaintances better than me as well. And he'd just say don't be jealous of them. IM YOUR OFFSPRING HOW TF YOU EXPECT ME TO FEEL smh. If your dad treated a person better than you that's not even related you'd feel the same too. But that person burned dad im the end not literally but in being crappy and shunning him. And of course like a coward instead of days telling him how he felt about what the guy said he TOOK THAT ANGER OUT ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!. AND you dad WONDER WHY I FEEL HOW I FEEL!!!?????? Same with another person he did the same thing to me after they treated him bad n screwed him over or tried to whatever to him he again too his anger out on me. So you wonder why I feel the way I do about you dad ? Get bent kick rocks etc
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