I’m Angry and Hurt

If you want someone in your life then have them in your life and let them be in your life. I’ve had to sit and watch someone who clearly loves me very much judging by the things they do and say and the way they are with me; watch them let others in as if I’m not worthy of such treatment. I’m angry this person continues to shove everyone away from me while simply keeping me away from them too as if I’m a creature who needs to simply sit on display giving people what they like sometimes and exist within myself not worthy of companionship really. I’m tired of people turning to me when they need or want something but not being there for me in the same way. f*ck you. get out of my life if you have better things to do. I’m starting to f*cking hate you, and how dare you pretend you are some sort of friend to me, or a relative who cares, or some stranger who wants to get to know me when you really don’t, you’re trash for not being sincere with others. I hate all of you. f*ck you. now you can get what you need and want from someone else. f*ck off. all of you. if I want you in my life I’ll find you. Leave me alone. Your bridge that leads to me has blown up and is gone. Get it? f*ck off. I’m done.