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i don’t know what to do with my life anymore. (tw: sh, suicide)
5 months ago · 10 · maybe depression, +1 · Explicit
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i am 15 years old and i may be suffering from depression, i’m not sure. i have been cutting myself and it started back in october. i’ve dropped out of school and all i’ve been doing is just locking myself up in my room. i barley go anywhere and i barley eat. i’ve had multiple thoughts of killing myself. i just want to go to my bathroom and drown myself in the bathtub. no one cares about me and they all hate me. i am so useless, worthless and pathetic. i only have one true friend who talks to me. honestly i just want to cry my eyes out and starve myself. i also just want to sleep and i just want to be stuck sleeping. i think everyone would be better off if i was dead. they would be happy if i was just dead anyways. i think my future will be bad and i’ll never get to meet my one true friend. i’ll just be rotting in my room until i die. my family don’t give a fuck about me. they just yell at me and call me stupid. and my brother won’t stop teasing me and i just can’t anymore. my aunt hates me. she doesn’t talk to me and gives my brother all the praise while i am just ignored. this is all my fucking fault for doing this. cutting myself is the only way i’ll keep sane. i’m such a fucking crybaby. i should just really kill myself. i will never be able to feel better.
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Hi there :) Thank you for sharing your story, and thank you for reaching out. What do you need most?
ReplyAlso, have a listen to this song :)
https://youtu.be/IwtcwQwgdsA?si=Aa7DFxqmRk0A5yib
This time of life is a challenging one! You are not stuck this way forever, you (or anyone around you) have not messed things up beyond repair. A beautiful life is out there for you, and hope is near you, even if you aren't able to see it right now. Let me know what you think of that song :) Talk to you soon!
Replyhello, author of the post here (again) i just want to say i like the song. i feel better after venting out my feelings and listening to that song.
Replyhello, author of the post here. i feel like i need therapy but i feel like my mom will say no because she says “we can’t afford it”. i’ve been suffering like this for a few months now, i hate it.
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Regarding therapy, could you ask your mom about it this morning? Tell her the truth about the things you've been doing and feeling and thinking. That way, she'll get a clearer picture of your struggles to be able to help.
Replyhttps://youtu.be/Q4exKwB0WRk?si=Z-E3bxHyxOx1EcnO
This is another good one!
Trouble came knocking at my door today
I ain't gonna let it in
Worry wanna try to steal my joy away
I ain't gonna let it win
Love that!!
Replyhello, author here again, this song is also nice, like very nice.
Replyhey, author here. i am really scared of telling my mom that i need therapy because i know she’ll say no. also, it is night here where i live.
ReplyYou don't know until you try :) Please try
ReplyHow are things today?
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