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it's been more than a year since my mom's passing. throughout that time, most of it i didn't really think about her passing, i just went along life. few time, i would sometimes think about her or cry, but it didn't really occur that often. but these past days, the thought of my mom and her passing has been haunting me. two days ago, i got a really bad headache and when i was trying to make me fall asleep, the thought of it was haunting me. it didn't give me comfort through that pain, but rather it made me sad and all emo thinking about the things i don't get to do with her, all those nostalgic memories. and until now, it's still haunting me. whenever a tiktok video about mom comes up, i always skip it because it becomes sensitive to me i can get really emotional. heck, i keep on thinking the time where she got moved from her job when she was hospitalized and she attended the zoom happily because she could work near to her family, not knowing there's no use for moving because her condition would get worse and die in within months. gosh that still haunts me. the texts she wrote to me during her sickness, saying that she couldn't wait to be cured so she can spend time pillow-talking with me like what it used to be. i don't even remember what i was doing when she's sick, hospitalized, at a different city, far from me. was i concerned the whole time? or was i full on apathy about it and just cared when things just got worse? she was the light in our family, the ball of sunshine, the one that lit up my family with all her laughs and acts. eventhough it can get a bit embarrassing and annoying, i always respect and love her. she was my closest person, the love of my life. and now she's gone, my love is gone.
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You are lucky to have had a mother you could love and now miss. Not like others and myself who had nasty horrible mothers who we can't help but hate and are glad to be rid of.
ReplyHopefully in time your feelings, thoughts and emotions will settle down and you’ll be able to mostly remember the good times. My mother passed in 1999 and we never got on and weren’t speaking to each other when she died and I still get bitter about everything nearly 25 years on. Would hate that to happen to you and I fear it might as I detect an element of uncaring in your post
ReplyThe loss of a parent, wow, yes, leaves most of us feeling lost. I prayed for a sign that they are on the other side now, home, and at peace. Faith is a journey, and hopefully you reach a point in your faith where you are at peace with your mom going home ahead of you, and that one day we will all return home, where we were before we were thrust into this physical vessel. Best of luck.
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1 Thessalonians 5:11
Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
Mark 12:28-31
And Christ Jesus said the 2 greatest commandments are:
Love God first and foremost.
Love your fellow-being as you love yourself.
From following or not following these, all good or evil cascades, respectively.
Love...that powerful, invisible, intangible force that cannot be denied; even atheists live and die by it.
And since death is the only guarantee in life, Mary, Mother of Christ, intercede for us with your prayers, now, and at the hour of our death.
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