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I try so hard to have an organized week and not to have a mental breakdown. I feel like the more I try to make things right, the more I break down and get my feelings and my hopes crushed. And this is not about a boy or a situation or a friend, it is about my teachers, my parents, my sister.
In my last year of highschool I want to make things right, have a nice goodbye to them before college, making them proud. I really do, it's just I've had my soul crushed by these people for so long and now I wanna do right by them. Is it so wrong?
The first change I wanted to make was to become more organized. I'm trying to, you know? My head hurts from trying so hard every single day. I want to become better. When I was young I told myself that if I'm not the person I wanted to be I shouldn't be a person at all. It was long before my last year of highschool that I told myself "Continue like this and you'll have to k*ll yourself" so now that I'm trying my best while also having that little voice in my head that tells me to jump off of something it's a crazy amount of stress. It's like 2 different people are fighting in my brain and one tells me to give up and the other screams to move on, work harder, play smarter. Who tf should I listen to? I want to shut off that little voice that tells me constantly to leave this earth.. because that'll mean I gave up. Something about me: I always give up on everything. My dream highschool was forced out of my grasp because of money problems so I had to go to the crappy local school I've been to forever. All of my dreams since childhood were either taken from me or crushed right before they started. I told myself, my last dream would be this college. If I get this I can start dreaming from there. So if I don't get this either, if I don't achieve this either.. what am I? Nothing. I accomplished NOTHING if I don't get this. I can't help but put pressure on myself now. I have to get this and I will.
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I love your ambition, and your drive to keep going. Someone like you will always find a way to overcome any obstacles. And no matter, don't beat yourself up, the world is harsh as it is. Believe in yourself, you will always be "something". Best of luck.
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Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
Mark 12:28-31
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Love God first and foremost.
Love your fellow-being as you love yourself.
From following or not following these, all good or evil cascades, respectively.
Love...that powerful, invisible, intangible force that cannot be denied; even atheists live and die by it.
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