dont even know atp

my whole body hurts, head hurts, heart aches. I dont feel like doing anything but I rlly wanna get up and do something. I have a heart valve disease, and I've had it since I was born (congenital heart disease) and I'm just so scared. I had my appointment a while back, but the cardiologist just sent in the letter about it all now and reading the letter js made my heart drop, yk? Like nothing bad happened, but they way she worded it was awful. During the appointment too, she told me the worst cause scenario and I wanted to break down crying right there and there. And the fact that its risky for me to have kids, and ill probably not be able to have many? I know I'm young and worrying about me being able to get pregnant shouldn't be my top priority rn, but still that's so fucking annoying. js feels like I'm the only one going thru awful things and everyone else is js fine