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I know you're probably being consoled right now. Being told everything you want to hear. Gradually to help build a delusion in your brain. Hugged, comforted, listened to. You're the bad guy. The villan. The one who swiftly broke my heart into pieces, swept it away, and let the wind blow miles away. Without the saying those daggers to my face, the indecency. Scrambled into merely an assortment of selfish words to project on a screen. I couldn't even hear your voice one last time. Friends? Why the lifelong torture. Do you have a crumb of morals? To drag me along, get the benefits, the attention, without the commitment. I wonder how much you cared as I did for you? How attached were you truly, to revert back to friends? Touch, your face, those brown eyes, your soft spoken voice, the photos of us.. Replaying inside my head like eternal damnation for my soul.
I built a castle with walls miles high, water stretching to the unreachable, with the hardest stone, and the strongest locks. It was never built that way in the beginning, commerce was free to travel, music, art, and festivals filled sun rise to set. But, it became invaded, the closest mistrusted, the shine forgotten, forever abandoned. A new king set forth, vowing never in a million lifetimes to allow such to happen again. Thus, the 'new and improved' castle was made.
I gave you that key. I let down every wall, spoke every word of truth, never allowed a shadow of doubt to fill your mind. You unlocked my deepest darkest room. There I was. Such a fool. A glimpse of sunlight blinded me for how long I was in darkness.
Well now, it is all in ruins, and honestly, I don't believe I can build again. I am growing tired, the stones too heavy. I have lost my city.
Me? I sit in my room, trying not to cry loud. I wouldn't want anyone to think something is wrong. No pity for me. Left with the same issues I thought would heal. Ironically creating my own delusion formed for my abandonment and 'intuition'. I'm blocked currently. And you just so happen to be going bowling tonight with three men and two of your girlfriends. Interesting. Always a blast to add another 'what if' or 'did she ever care' thought into my brain. All I have left is a few photos and my hoodie that smells like you. Although when I smell it, I shake and cry uncontrollably. But will I wash it? No. It is demented because I am holding onto the only pieces of you I have left.
I hope I was the test run.
I hope you fine tuned what you like about a man and what you don't, because I would never wish this feeling on anyone else in this world.
I hope you heal inside. The spark and hope I saw in you, is in there. That is why I fell for you. Deep down I see you're hurting, I was silly enough to try and help cauterize the wound.
If you needed to step on me, to find yourself and happiness, it's okay, I'll forever hold you up.
I forgive you, but sometimes I wish I never met you.
Goodbye I guess..
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Things will get better eventually
I hope you find peace
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