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I want to figure skate so badly but I can't afford it. It's my passion but it's so expensive. I've wanted to for years. I love it and as expected I watch a lot of figure skating videos and movies and follow my favorite skaters on social media but it's gotten to the point where I cant even enjoy those things anymore because I see those people skating and it just reminds me that I'll never get to. I used to love watching the skating Olympics but it's too painful now. I can't take lessons because they're too expensive. I can't get my own skates because they're too expensive. I can't even go public skating enough to improve my skills because it's too expensive. I would kill to have the money for a private coach. I'd cut my own arm off with a toothpick just to have a sliver of the talent and opportunity that some people have. I literally want to BE Kamila Valieva. I admire her greatly. I'm nearly the same age as her but she has so many years of experience that it's almost discouraging. I want to be like her but I can't afford it. I only feel alive when I skate. I went skating with a friend yesterday and I felt happy in the moment but afterwards I felt crushed because it was as if my dreams were being dangled in front of me and then snatched away again. I can only afford to skate around once a month. However I'm splurging and going again with that friend tomorrow and I find myself conflicted. Of course I want to go but I also don't want to feel the drop of emotion after it's over. If I could skate 24/7 I would. It's my happiness. My life is on the ice. Every time I get off, it feels like I'm grieving. I count down the days until the next month where I can go again. My rink is open most days for two 2.5 hour periods. Whenever I go, I stay the whole 2.5 hours. I cherish the time I have. I'm in another world when I skate. A world where nothing else matters. I don't care if no one else understands because I do. The first time I skated was the first time I understood what passion really was. Even then, when I was just barely getting from one side of the rink to the other, I knew it was where I belonged.
I'd do anything to figure skate. I want it so bad. It keeps me awake at night. If I'm ever going to afford regular practice I guess I need to sell a kidney or sleep with the rink managers or something. I'd literally do it, I'm not kidding. If the devil himself came up to me right now and offered me a lifetime of free, easy breezy figure skating opportunities, I'd sell my soul in an instant. Just as long as he guaranteed me access to a rink in hell after I die. I'd do the devil's bidding on weekdays, and skate on weekends, y'know? I just want it so bad. It's probably hard for others to understand but whatever. All I care about is skating.
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You’ve got to enter a problem-solver’s mindset to make your dreams have any remote chance of coming true. If you love skating, don’t give up. Maybe can’t be Kamila Valieva, but can at least do something you love and enjoy it with all your heart.
ReplyThanks for sharing; having a passion for something positive where you're not hurting anyone, it's a good thing. Try not to neglect your loved ones though, which includes never doing anything that would result in harming yourself. Best of luck.
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1 Thessalonians 5:11
Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
Mark 12:28-31
And Christ Jesus said the 2 greatest commandments are:
Love God first and foremost.
Love your fellow-being as you love yourself.
From following or not following these, all good or evil cascades, respectively.
Love...that powerful, invisible, intangible force that cannot be denied; even atheists live and die by it.
And since death is the only guarantee in life, Mary, Mother of Christ, intercede for us with your prayers, now, and at the hour of our death.
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