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I write this as the ultimate letter to myself that I want to leave in 2023 so I can move on and not drag these thoughts after me in 2024. Even if 2024 started already I can't really start fresh without confessing a few things.
I'm extremely insecure. I was made fun of for my weight, my looks, my financial situation, even my name. My parents give me a hard time because they're never getting along, they have health problems, money problems, they treat me like I'm their slave and I can't concentrate on my school work because I can't ever find peace in this house. That's why I'm embarrassed about my grades and my situation at school. It's sad and I want to change it, but my energy is running low all the time. Every time I say I got it, I can do it, then something happens and I can't. I have so many problems and I honestly thought that I should commit to escape it all. I never actually got around to doing it because I still think a few people care about me.
I have an age where everybody's in love and has their person by their side. I've never been liked by someone before and my life lacks romance and love in hurtful ways. My friend's being pursued by multiple guys at once while I'm still being the laughing stock of our classmates for being ugly. I am the ugly friend no matter how much I dress up.
For the new year I want a fresh start at the college that I want to get into. That's all I wish for. A clean slate, a new page. I'm too tired to continue living life like a failure. Someone asked me as a joke once weather or not I'm gonna commit if I don't get into my dream college and I honestly didn't know what to say because it made me think about it more deeply than how I should have. I mean I never imagined myself being alive at this age and I can't imagine life 6 months from now either if I don't get into that college. I don't want to fail. I want to win. I really do
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I just want to wish you luck for the college and I have faith in you that you can do it.
I'm at a similar age to you, and I've never had any romance either. I was bullied in high school for my looks amongst other things and I feel like I can understand how you feel to an extent.
I'm sorry that you've had to go through something as terrible as this and at college, people act more mature than in high school so hopefully all goes well for you there.
2024 is a new year, and you can do this. I'm sorry that you have to deal with a lot of things but maybe there could be someone you trust, maybe someone at school or somewhere else you could unload too and get some help managing everything?
Best wishes.
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Replydw everything is gonna be fine . believe in yourself ! even i can relate to you . While everybody's in love , im not but lets believe that everything takes place on their own pace. Happy new year and i hope you can achieve your goals :)
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