To my ex fiance

I had a dream about you last night. We were still together.. I was "happy" and scared all at the same time. Time had passed and I had moved on, but we were still engaged somehow. I knew I was obligated to be with you, but I didn't want to be with you. I think my subconscious was trying to tell me that our relationship has been holding me back from actually moving on in my real life. That what you put me through made me scared to pursue other relationships and I was still holding onto the pain you put me through. I haven't entertained a man since we parted. You broke me in ways I didn't realize were possible and I have suffered. Odd that I woke up missing you a bit and wondering how you were doing. I think you're in Texas now..I suppose that's what abuse does to your mind. All of this to say.. thank you for all of the pain and redirecting me. I was broken, but I'm healing. I have found some semblance of happiness, and it continues to grow. I hope you have healed and gotten the help you need too. I think I'm ready to remove you from mind and my heart. I'm ready for new and healthy. That dream shook me to see you again, but I don't want that past. I want my future.