Difficult to survive for long

Hey guys,

I always thought how someone can take a drastic step of committing suicide.

However, in last few months I have realised that dying is much easier and worth in comparison to surviving

I heard it somewhere life is deadlier as compared to death

Death happens only once however life slaps us daily

Sitting here all alone I realise all the best things of life are gone and settled somewhere or with someone else and I am left in isolation along with memories and pains of future

Losing my first wife, taking a wrong decision of my career has ruined everything in my life

I am struggling and surviving on a sponsored life

My parents and my family has written me off completely and I myself thing besides writing me off there is no other alternative left for them and for me

All my aspirations have died. All I need is some peace .

I am a chartered Accountant and it has become a challenge for me to explain the world that I can't do that a ca can do but there are n number of things that I can do however God is not giving me those choices in life

Pandit told me my hood time is coming from this Diwali however I have lost faith onto myself

I don't know what I will do post Diwali as it is going to be challenge for me to explain anything to anyone

People who betrayed my faith are living a smart and relaxed life and I am destroyed toe every extent

I don't know if anyone can do anything for me but if this continues one Day I am going to give up on my life ... Sooner or later

Honestly, looks so easy to me to suicide ... I could have done so many things in life but they say 'man proposes, God disposes'... Needless to say God has been quite harsh with me ..... Various theories float around about these issues...rebirth etc but whatever it is I am not accepting this non sense

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