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Life feels so mundane these last few months. As life is getting boring. Even conversations loose their interest very quick for me. I hate my mind. Sometimes I wish i could just end it. But I am too much of a coward for that. I can't keep a conversation even with my closest friends and family. I know that I am pushing them away because i don't want them to see how hard life for me is. I struggle with day to day task. Even working has found a way to just seem meaningless. Having a illness is hard to deal with. And caring for those who you love that are dying is harder. Doesn't mix well with someone like me. Not being able to remember people tell you with in a 5 minute period really can get to you. Thinking you have some sort of brain loss of memory's.
Even though I am in therapy. It doesn't seem like it helps much except the positive reinforcement . That is when the mind says oh hey lets shoot our self. Well come back in a positive way . But even that doesn't help sometimes. My mood changes constantly. One moment I could be happy as a bird and the next I could feel as if someone ripped my soul out of my body. Depression is so hard to deal with with you have so much self hate toward your own self. Why didn't i do this or do that. Why does everything have to have a meaning. Why are people so fucking cruel. Why do people take advantage of those who do good for them? Why does everything have to have a meaning . If i wanna say some bull shart off the wall crap . Then why can't i say it with out people looking at me as if i am the weird one.
Wanted to go to a Celebrate Recovery for people like me who are suffering every day with depression. And the day I decided to go my ex cheating ass g/f decided she wanted to go. Using as bitch. Then I decide in my mind I don't want to see a using ass bitch anymore. So i decide not to go. And she been going every time its open. Shes the one that cheated on me. Ugh. Life is hard.
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life sucks. people suck. i was depressed a while back and i had the same issue, i couldn’t hold a conversation for shit i just didn’t care and my memory is still dog water. i don’t know what will make u feel better u gotta find that yourself whether it be a bobbie or some shit. some reason to live other than your job or family, for yourself. but YOU have to find it and ask for guidance if you’re lost. good luck bro, it’ll get better just hold on
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