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I'm someone who really have an active suicidal thoughts, I would always make scenario's like plans of how I should kill myself or so. My mind is a mess when I started overthinking or imagining them. I really hate myself. I hate how I have develop into. In my part, it's really hard to express myself through words mostly infront of my parents they just seem to be too strict for me to have the courage to actually talk to them face to face about what I feel. But I always gaslight myself, by thinking my problems aren't that too serious or how useless it will sound if I tried to rant or vent to them.
I have 2 suicidal attempts sadly failed one is from 2023 and one from last month 2024. School was a mess, i got into a situation where I have suffered to some super stress and mixed with anxiety. It didn't help at all. Making all those combine just makes me overthink over and over negative stuff before positive scenarios.
I just wanted to let out this by writing it maybe, by anonymously. I have written about 2-4 suicides notes that yeah half of it were not fullfil and the other half was a failed attempt. Its all in my phone notes. It's terrible, but It probably did help me in someway to let out my stress and anxiety as well thoughts out.
My english is not as good as you can tell but I don't have much brain cell to know where this whole thing is going so I'll end it here. And its up to you guys to questioning me. I'm up for it.
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Your life has tremendous purpose and value, and it pains me to read all this. I can promise you one thing, and that is the all things shall pass. This horrible time you are going through now can be replaced with a wonderful life in the future, if you just have to be patient, and kind to yourself in the meantime.
God knows what you are going through and is close to you during the challenging times. Its up to us to muster the strength and fight another day. Take things slow, and again, be kind to yourself. No one heals overnight, but in time all things are possible.
I would highly recommend you speak with a licensed professional who can help you. I would also recommend keeping yourself busy each day. Read a new book, learn a recipe, learn to play an instrument, go for long walks, take up a new workout program, learn a new language, etc.... All these will help get your mind onto the right track while you are healing.
I don't know you, but I will be thinking about you and hoping you find peace one day soon.
Your Friend,
Atreyu
ReplyEven though I don't know you, you are special to everyone around you and like I said though I don't know you I think you are special. I have had friends who offed themselves and it made me sad and a bit angry at them for leaving everything they worked hard for behind. So please, don't do it, you'll only hurt the people around you if you do cuz as I said, you are special to the people around you <3
-Hoping for your health,
Caden
ReplyI don't know you but I do know some things, such as you are very special to everyone around you, and as I said I don't know you, but you are special as well to me. I have had friends who did and it angered me and made me sad because they left everything so hard worked for behind and left behind people who loved them. So please, don't hurt the people around you like others have.
-Praying for your happiness,
Caden
ReplyI'm sending you love and hugs.
Know that you are wonderfully made and created for a reason (Psalm 139:13-18). Know that God loves you, more than anyone else (Isaiah 49:15). He has great plans for you (Jeremiah 29:11). Call upon Him, ask Him about it and He will tell you about them (Jeremiah 33:3).
I used to write letters to God when I was young, even now that I am not so young. I told Him all the hurts, insecurities, troubles, desires, fears, everything. In my mind, I thought no one would understand me, not even my family and friends, but since God is God, He would surely understand me, and true indeed He did, He does.
I speak blessings of peace, joy, and favor upon your life, in Christ Jesus' name.
Heads-up child of God, you got this and He got you!
Replytc man you will be fine just fine
stay strong please
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