I hate this

I'm so fucking jealous I hate it. My boyfriend gave me his password to his Instagram account, not because I asked for it I never did he just wanted me to have it. I hate it. I hate how he talks to other girls, not in a cheating way but just friend way. He hearts their mssgs and his friends heart his back and I'm so fucking jealous. I only want him to talk to me. One of his friends told him they loved him bc he bought them mango slices and I genuinely started bawling. I'm so fucking sensitive I can't even handle his friends showing appreciation because I feel like they have a crush on him, a lot of people have a crush on my boyfriend. My boyfriend is an attractive person and I'm so scared he'll like someone who isn't me, we've been dating online for a year and two months but I'm scared. We reassure each other that we only love each other and what I say is 100% true I only love my boyfriend with my whole soul and being and I hope he does too. I hate being jealous . He's usually the one getting jealous and I can tell but I hide it when I'm jealous and hold it in till I have small breakdowns and become dry. I just want him all to myself I know it's selfish but I do. He also gets the same way becoming selfish and greedy wanting me all your himself and he apologizes for it. I hate myself for crying over him liking a friends post that's a girl but his friends are so pretty and I'm just here. I do feel like the prettiest person alive sometimes , I did today but when I went on his account I loose all confidence and I think so into a small depressive episode. I hate myself for being this way I just wanna be normal and not a weird loser girlfriend.