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Every thing leads back to him
Well not everything just me I guess you can say after everything I’ve been through I look for him like yes he broke my heart after kissing me and telling me he shouldn’t have done that because he basically was cheating on me but damn every time I think of him I’m happy it’s toxic I know. his girlfriend told me she wanted to be done with him because he still stares at me as I walk by. I’ve stop noticing I tried to stop caring but I still see them and it’s been 5 months sense she told me that. The second she calls it quits I’m running straight to him. He made me so happy. I laughed around him, I’ve never laughed around people like that he was different different in a way I want for ever. I know he broke my heart but I can’t not love him. I was 14 years old when I first loved him now it’s been almost 3 and a half years and I still go back to him. I tell people second chances aren’t good but me and him we had our second chance and it was better than anything with anyone I’ve ever had. And I want more chances and I’m not wanting to end it till I know it’s not meant but I just know somewhere that it is meant to be . I want him back it’s bad. I run into his siblings at school and I just see him. I tied snapping him and he left me on open. I just wanted to be friends again. We never weren’t friends but he never talks to me anymore. It sucks. We were good as friends. Even though clearly we couldn’t just be friends. And if we did try again just to be friends it wouldn’t work. We both want something more and we know it. The only problem is he has a girlfriend he doesn’t even love. How can you say you love someone when your clearly staring at someone else you smile more with,you were happier with. You were more free with. He loves me and he knows it. He can’t deny it. Hell he’ll run back to me the second they call it quits. He’s done it before. Maybe I need to stop that’s toxic. I’m always his rebound. But if he keeps coming back to me he must really love me then, right? But what do I know I’m just a silly young girl who in love with a stupid young boy. It’s almost like a stupid high school musical they way me and him are towards each other. Our first kiss sure felt like it. That sense replays in my head every day. And every time that stupid song that we just had to make out to plays . And it plays everywhere. At least all the stupid sporting events and that how lucky I am I do every single sport. I try to forget him all the time. But it’s always the little things that always make me think of him. Like a Fucking Bobby pin like hello how the hell does that make me think of him, does it make him think of me? Oh I would die to know. I would die to know if he even cares about what we had, whatever it was that we had. I probably will never know though. I love him.
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hey <333
uhhh, ngl I don't think this is the right choice..at all...but the reason for that is, because look at the way he's treating you. I'm sorry but you're frustrating me with how naive you are. And please don't get mad over it, but honestly, if he liked you, he'd get with you. If you meant something to him, then he'd want you. HE does NOT deserve you, don't let this guy walk all over you. If he's staring AT YOU while being in a relationship, that's a HUGE RED FLAG. And whatever he said to you, omg how can you even look at him the same, that's straight up disgusting and rude. You're only 14 kid, when you grow older you're gonna look back on this, and see how silly this is. He doesn't deserve you girl, you deserve someone who's willing to choose you on the first go, not to kiss you, leave, then date another girl. CHEATER ALERT. I don't trust him, and neither should you...but you make the choices, everything about him seems so wrong. And every time they call it quits he comes to you??? Look over what I said, and like try to understand what I mean, and it's not to hurt you, but to make you understand you're not anything to him and he's just using, which that's absolutely not fair to you and you should be given the world and you deserve to find someone who's willing to give you all, instead of someone like him. You're like his little puppet, don't ever let someone use you like that, your a little delusionalðŸ˜ðŸ˜‚. But don't take my jokes to heart, try to understand what I mean, yea? Alright I wish you the best of luck!!! Take care
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