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Once upon a time, in a world where destinies intertwined and hearts sought solace in each other's embrace, there existed a love so profound that it seemed ordained by fate itself. This is the tale of Jeselle, a woman whose heart overflowed with love for a man she believed to be her truest counterpart.
As the soft whispers of the evening breeze caressed her hair , Jeselle found herself grappling with a heavy heart, burdened by regret and longing. With parchment and pen in hand, she poured her soul onto the pages, reaching out to her lost love with words of apology and yearning.
Her connection with him transcended the boundaries of time, space and circimstances, a bond so undeniable that it seemed to defy logic from the very moment they met. But despite the certainty of their love, Jeselle found herself paralyzed by fear, her judgment clouded, and her path obscured.
In the passage of time, their once vibrant love began to wither and fade, like a wilting flower deprived of the sunlight it so desperately craved. In a moment of reckoning, harsh words were exchanged, tempers flared, and egos clashed, leading to their painful parting as he walked away, leaving her standing amidst the wreckage of their shattered dreams.
In the aftermath, Jeselle found herself adrift in a sea of regret and sorrow, grappling with the weight of her mistakes and the enormity of her loss. She replayed their final moments together in her mind, agonizing over what she could have done differently, what she should have said but didn't.
With a heavy heart and trembling hands, Jeselle bared her soul in a letter filled with words of apology, remorse, and love. She acknowledged her shortcomings, realizing that she had placed her lost love on a pedestal, unwittingly diminishing her own worth and failing to offer him the support and understanding he so desperately needed. She engulfed herself in all her own problems and other peoples needs to fix, yet failed to focus on the one true thing that mattered the most.
In her quest for perfection, she neglected to embrace her vulnerabilities, unaware of the pain lurking behind his stoic facade. But with newfound clarity, Jeselle vowed to make amends for her past mistakes, to show him that she was capable of being the partner he deserved.
Armed with the knowledge that true strength lies in vulnerability, Jeselle set out to reclaim the love she had lost, trusting in the power of her words to bridge the chasm that separated them. With each stroke of the pen, she echoed a silent plea for forgiveness and a second chance, clinging to the hope of rebuilding what they had lost, in a completely different way, but with the same strong and eternal love that she feels still exists. "Is this wishful thinking or naivity speaking? What if he had found a new love while he was away? and what if what they shared was just a distant memory for him" she thinks, but what if it is not, her heart insists?
As she sealed the tear-stained letter with a trembling hand, Jeselle whispered a silent prayer, hoping against hope that her words would find their way to him, and that he would see the truth that lay within them. For in the depths of her heart, she knew that their love was worth fighting for, no matter the cost, and that true love would always find a way to prevail. So ego aside she writes her words, surrendering to God and the Universe.
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ReplyI feel like I need to write on this thread daily. I loved him deeper than the deepest ocean and then some. Circumstances and fear of change got in the way and I he deserved so much more. If I could change things I would in an instance. I still live in the love that we shared and believe with all my heart he is my twin flame. I love him and that's all I need to say. Forever and eternity. The twin flame journey is not an easy one but he taught me so much and I dream of the day we are united in the way it was intended.
ReplyI love you with all my heart and then some...If only you knew how much I love you and how much I thought of you...
ReplyI was listening to this amazing lady on spotify who mentioned that my twin flame runner was running becasue I was running from my true self and what my soul wants. And this hit home hard because it's true. I have been living a lie and trying to mask it all. It was all me as fear consumed me. My soul is craving something so different to what my ego is wanting and this is a lesson I must have needed to learn for myself the hard way becasue my TF tried to tell me this for years, and while I knew he was right, I ran and was too scared to make the changes that needed to be made. In some ways it feels good to acknolwedge that. But why must I always learn the hard way? He used to tell me for someone so intellegent, how can I not see this? And he was right. So here I am findning myself not happy with life and having little energy for things. I thought if I could just have some time out to heal myself and get my energy back, I could deal with things. Turns out, I needed to deal with things to get my energy and zest for life back. I always lived in love and it was amazing. That is who I am and that is who my soul is crying out for. Everything else feels meaningless without love. I write this here as I also know that everything is energy and I hope this message gets back to him. I have no expectations but there is a knowing of who we are and that we are one and meant to be. The pain I am feeling, I also inflicted on him for a long time. At the time I thought he was so much stronger than me and would not feel the pain like I did. How I thought that I will never understand... Learning the hard way again I guess. Sending you love my TF
ReplyThey say the truth hurts but it will also set you free. The truth is I was so scared it paralysed me and I should have been there for him so much more. I tried to juggle it and did little well. But one thing I don’t question ever is how much I love him. I knew always that our love could survive anything .. For now, I was wrong .. I hope it is for now only. I thought if I could get my health better, I could do what I needed to do. But turns out, I needed to do what I needed to do to get my health back in order.
ReplyI engaged in a twin flame consulting session today with an amazing lady living in Cyprus.. I told my truth to the first person ever outside of my TF… I’m ready.. Love you forever ❤️
ReplyI did the music Meditation and asked the question I needed to ask. I know part of the process now is to speak with all honesty and follow my soul’s desire. My heart has been speaking to me for years now and I nearly listened to it and then allowed my incredibly strong mind to take over. He was right, I need to do what I need to do to get better and not get better and then do what I need to do. The connection is still there and I feel it in my heart. I have asked God/Universe if he/she/they (we are one and all connected) can help me meet up with my TF i person and explain my truth to them and apologise and let them know that I plan on having a conversation and just tell the truth about whom I love and what my heart wants. Shame I had to learn the hard way, but maybe this is the only way it was meant to be. Am I scared? Yes? But it's different than before, I am scared but also know if I were to just tell the truth exactly as is and who I fell in love with and how long ago, it will somehow be o.k and I can move on. I was going to do that the day before it all turned sour and stopped because I felt my TF withdraw so quickly and it scared me to do it without him. I wanted assurances as he had promised to be my safety net. But I guess that safety net could not last for so long and he saw a side to me he did not like. Part of the process over the next 21 days is that I need to purge and cry first. I am then going to do a channelling session and then speak my truth. My heart is asking to speak face-to-face with my TF before that time. I hope energetically my TF can feel this: I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me.
ReplyI wrote this a couple of days ago and wanted to post here.. I don't know why but I am being guided to post here. I know longer need to use logic and just working through my heart. "Before we met overseas, I used to have a reoccurring dream that I had lost my love and did not know where he was and who he was. I searched and searched in my dream as I felt lost. Then I would wake up and remember I was married with children and could not understand why I kept dreaming of my lost love over and over. Once we met, I never had that dream again. It’s been over 8 years now and I know now where this came from. You are my twin flame and we found each other in this physical lifetime. It was magnificent and beyond comprehension, but I did not know what to do with my situation. Losing you again has been so hard, and I know it was not easy on you. You gave me everything and you could not give any more. We agreed we would wait till my kids were older but I found it also hard to deal with the guilt and the demands of life. Juggling it all took its toll and I impacted your wellbeing not just my own. I impacted it so much, that you pulled away and hardened towards me. I get that. I hardened too at times but the only difference is that you knew how to open my heart back up each and every time. I did not do that well with you. Maybe it was my inability to cope. Maybe because spiritually you were more advanced and in touch, or maybe fear got the better of me. I hope me writing and journaling here sends a clear message to God, the universe and you to let you know I am on the right path and love you more every day. You taught me so much and I miss you. You would be proud of what I am doing today, if you knew and a part of me knows we should be doing this together. They say twin flame separation is a necessary part of the journey for each twin to grow and they can never be separated spiritually because they are one. I hold on to that in the knowing that it is true. I have let go of ego as much as I can to write this and send to you energetically. I don’t contact to respect your wishes on a physical plain, but I do hope that we will meet up and do what I should have done many years ago. I love you always and forever.
ReplyI forgive myself and let go… surrendering myself to God and the universe ..
ReplyI read a couple things this morning as I felt like I needed to reach out to him but scared that he hates me now. Sharing here: “ How can one be mad at someone he/she truly loves?
How can one be mad at someone whom his/her soul feels and sees as imperfectly perfect?
How can someone be mad at that other soul who made him/her feel like he is her home?
How can someone be mad at anyone her soul longs for?
At the end of all the burning of the ego self, only love remains.
This is true love.
This is why twin flame love is marvelous. It allows us to experience unconditional love. It knows no hate”
Reply“ I am sorry if they do. Your twin flame must hurt to do this to themselves. In my experience with my twin flame, all the emotional energy is one. If my twin flame feels something in his emotional body, I feel the same and vice versa. As a result, you must hurt as well.
Denying your soul's needs is the most painful experience you will ever have in your life. No pain on your body or mind will touch the surface of the pain that the soul feels. The essence of the twin flame connection is unconditional love for all of the universe. And this begins with the love of self and therefore love of twin flame. If your twin flame denies love for you, they deny love for themselves and everything in their life. Denying love is the most hurtful thing they can do to their soul.
Forget about what energy they are projecting onto you by pretending they do not love you. It is harmful to focus your attention on that. Instead, focus on the truth in your soul. Continue to demonstrate love for yourself, your twin flame, and all things. Lead by example, and they will follow as a result of your shared emotional energy. The place you bring your emotional body is the same place you will take theirs. May God Bless you.”
ReplyI sent my TF a note today and a song. Hooponopono Prayer. I don’t expect a response but wanted to send it to him with love. My son needed to go to ER today and I rushed home to take him. It makes you really think about what’s important and what’s not.. Here we are again in ER as we get further testing. My son is an angel and had not wanted to interrupt me during the day. It’s only when I called him to ask him how he was, as a general check in, did he tell me how much pain he was in. On the way to ER, some dark thoughts came to me about the possibility of losing my son. And I realised I would give up anything for him and his well being. I have reached a point where I need to make changes because my soul is asking for that. And I have started to speak my truth and focusing on the easy ones first that I have not dealt with yet and will work my way up. The TF spiritual coach did mention I should wait three weeks before taking action on the big things but should journal everything g which I am doing. Energetically, I am sending my TF all the love in the world and wish him only happiness and prosperity. I will focus on my own personal growth because I now understand the only reason he ran away from me is because I was running away from myself. It was all a reflection of what I was doing. I also recognise that he has been running away from things too and he needs to grow within himself. Maybe once we both grow we will reunite once and forever..
ReplyMy biggest learning is to look after my kids and myself. Nothing harder than watching your kid in so much pain and needing to go to ER. Still there and they will need to operate .. Makes me realise why I needed to look after their well being first and foremost. Our child got sick during the TF experience and I chose to look after my child .. he is in so much pain it breaks my heart. And he has been in a lot of pain for a long time now. I guess it’s true - my life is not about me. And I say that with love and no ego. I don’t need to be so self centric. Time to look after my health and my children’s health. Let go let God.
ReplyOperation set for tomorrow so have been focusing all my energy on looking after our child. Not given too much thought to my TF except on a few small occasions today and some of it was disbelief and anger and my ego says I should be angry at him and that I’m better off to have seen the truth before I made a mistake of a lifetime (thoughts). The heart rejects this and tells me he is coming from fear and how he is now treating me is More of a reflection on him and not me. He promised me the world and when the time came he did a complete 180. He says he is loyal and has a moral compass but I also know that that is just talk. He inlay so long as it serves him. At least I’m open and honest about that part. I don’t kid myself and understand human behaviour exceptionally well. I think he uses those excuses because he fears failure. “Loyalty” is only used till he is not. He did that in his work and in his previous relationship. In the end he treated me as he treated his first wife. This is his journey to learn and grow. I spent a lot of time blaming myself but what if it truly does take two. For example when he went through a very hard experience, I tried to talk to him about it and he asked me not to bring it up. So he would not share how he was feeling and would always focus on my needs. So it was always easier for me to talk about myself and what my issues were because he did not like talking about his own and would shut it all down quickly so I felt I needed to fill the void/gap. That came back to bite me. Yes he always wanted to talk about us in terms of relationships and I wanted to talk about us regarding his work, business his fears and not just mine. I also did not want to talk about the relationship .. I wanted to be in it and not just talk about it. I’m going to stop taking blame for everything. I will reframe it. Not everything is my fault, but everything in my life is my responsibility. It is what it is and I’m looking after my health and well being and I plan on getting more and more in to my divine feminine energy. That’s what my soul wants. He always used to say he played second fiddle and only helped others succeed. I think that’s also a cop out. I say this with love and not in anger or judgement. He does not believe in himself enough and always thought because he did not have a degree he was not good enough. He also is very black and white with no shades of grey. So mental agility and flexibility during times of stress and anger were just not there. How can they be. He’s very intense and polarising .. but I loved him for it as well. I just think he self sabotaged himself a lot too. Hense his Lone Ranger style of being. He is also not honest and puts a faced up and makes the world believe he is something he is not .. that’s ego playing. I’m writing all this because I am not going to take all the blame all the time moving forward. That’s part of my truth as well. I still love him like crazy and always will but he’s not as perfect as I painted him out to be. Why should I always put myself down to make others sound better? Maybe that’s the lesson in need to learn. To always just speak my truth with kindness and heart. ❤️
ReplyThe antibiotics have kicked in and so there is less pain. Operation is still on today. Am grateful to God that we have the best healthcare system to look after our child. I often think about others around the world who do not have this and realise that it should not be this way. I sent my TF love this morning and feel a lot stronger though I am also incredibly tired as I have been in the hospital for the last 48 hours. Ultimately it is a realisation of what's important and what's not. I still hope to one day be with my TF by the ocean/water somewhere. But I think that is out of my hands for now so will focus on myself and growth to become a better person and live my truth. Have to keep working on that but for now, the only truth is that I need to help our child get better and stronger and also look after my health and well-being. I can't help but keep thinking, my life is not about me. It's a good way to look at it as it gets you out of your own way and not take everything so personally. One thing the TF healer mentioned was that I need to find ways to look after myself and not keep looking after others. I think she meant my need to help everyone at my own expense and not about the kids etc. If it were completely up to me what would I be doing? I'd be living a simple life by the beach somewhere beautiful, exercising each day and meditating, walking on the beach hand in hand with my twin flame as we work on our business together which would be all about helping people. I would be writing a lot and also would love to have a little garden that can bear fruit. I would love to travel and be around great people and give as much as possible without giving away myself and my health. I think it's all about mindset. Activism takes a strong mind I am learning not to be taken advantage of. I feel like I have been in training for what I need to do for some time. Today though I need to let go of all of this and focus on our Child. Sending you love and light TF.
ReplyI am listening to some music my TF sent me in 2022 titled "Giving it all" where he wrote in the email he was giving me his all. Take me back any day. Sending it right back to you my TF. The truth is I never thought we would be here but now that I understand the tF journey this is a necessary step for our individual growth before we come back together again. What do I want? I want to be walking hand in hand by the beach with him, living in a small but nice place by the beach living a simple life giving back as we know best. I always wanted us to be working together but as I read back on some of the emails I realise now he was hesitant as well and I did not pick up on it because financially he had many commitments and I needed to understand it more to see how I could have helped. But as mentioned previously, I put him too much on a pedestal and that was not fair on him. I should have asked different questions to help more. We should have been working together a long time ago properly and not just him helping me. The only reason why my TF ran away from me was because I was running away from myself. Which is so true. I was running away from him initially because he was also running away from himself but for some reason, he could contact me any time and I would be back in his arms because I knew the truth deep in my heart and could let go of my ego quickly. I have asked God and the universe to help me to be able to sit with him and open his heart again. I know we can do that and I know he still loves me and we are meant to be together. Sending you all my eternal love my TF and only wishing you the best till we meet again.
ReplyIf we go back to speaking my truth, I used to be so scared that he would leave me one day and that he could hurt me. I said that to him on the first night, we were together. I also mentioned that in a text when I was overseas one time we argued over text. I felt like I could not always express myself by text or in person at times because he could turn things around on me and was much quicker than me in getting certain things. He rang me up crying one time when he realised I was scared he could hurt me. That was when we were still so connected. When he disconnected, that side of him did come out and he was so cold towards me. I get how it happened because I was cold before that to him. The only difference was that I knew I was doing it out of fear and could not envisage life without him. Sometimes his intensity scared me and I backed off but then it went from all to nothing. I guess deep down I knew when you are that intense, the off button can be really cold. Everything has opposites and he gave so much on the one side, so he could take it all away in an instant. We used to discuss that he was so black or white with no shades of grey and that was a little dangerous as well. But maybe that is what his learning journey is about. Mine is about speaking my truth and not being fearful. I will always love him no matter what. He is perfect exactly as he is. Love his perfect imperfections.
ReplyToday was a relatively good day. Though I did not sleep well, I woke up early and went for a walk and to the outdoor gym. Moving my body is important and I have not done it properly in a while as I have been feeling down and low energy. But decided to start loving life. After making a few decisions and letting go of a few things that no longer serve me (e.g. removing one supplier, setting boundaries with one of my business colleagues and saying no to a few more things that I just don’t want to do), I received some business my way as well which was great. I also started listening to the AlChemist which was our first book together. I will start all over again and have sent him a message to say I hope one day if and when he is ready we can meet to talk with an open heart. I do believe in the whole notion of MAKTUB. I find it hard to believe that he would hate me so much and just cut me off like that but it is something I must come to terms with. I have surrendered to God and I am thinking more and more about Islam as I get closer and closer to it. That’s true surrender!!
ReplyI was pulled to go to church today. The church where his mother's spirit is. There are two lily plants there and I need to speak to her, Mother Nary, and our Lord Jesus Christ. I asked his mother to look deep in to my heart and feel what I was feeling. I asked for forgiveness and to send a message to her son. I asked for a sign though I also know that I don’t need one to prove to me that he is my TF or that he still loves me. Spiritually I know this is the case. Physically, he shut his heart to me and that’s my doing. What’s in my heart and why I was so scared can not be described in words but I know she would be able to feel it all. The good, the bad and the ugly. I neared it all. I was also pulled to send him a photo of the church and send him an email. All my pride and ego is gone. A part of me has died and a part of me is ready for rebirth. This week is for deep prayer and silence. For the first time I cried from the my heart in Church. Sending you all the love in the world my TF.
ReplyI had asked his mother for a sign while I was in church and praying deeply for 2 hours on my own. I asked her for a sign to let me know if we would be together again one day. 1 hour and 23 minutes in the prayers I received a text to say a parcel had been delivered. It was a plant from a company that he and I used to order from. The plant represents his mother. He has two and I have two (Now three). I thought it was from him and what a sign. It is still a sign as there is no way this is random. But it was not from him. I sent him another email with a photo of the plant to say my sign was sent to me. I do not expect to hear back from him yet but I hope he read it. I also shared a big part of my story with a dear friend as I needed to speak my truth. He mentioned that maybe this is a time for both of us to sort ourselves out and that in the next 1.5 years, we will be together again when my child is ready to go to university. I believe this. Time to sort myself out and prepare for it. xoxox
ReplyYou were never invisible to me. You were a part of me and me. Always will be. Love you my TF.
ReplyHe made me a pinky promise and would tell me he was my safety net and there for me 24-7-365. I used to think I was the runner but knew how much I loved him and that we would always be together .. I ran because of his intensity.band I was scared. Turns out the pinky promise was easy for him to break. It was a pinky promise from the heart and we were married by heart and soul. I was just putting things in to motion to change my whole life around for us and he then ran, treated me so badly and tried to put blame on me. And I’ve been blaming myself for it the whole time. But he broke the pinky promise, when I needed the safety net, it was not there any more and he ghosted me, closed his heart, stopped talking to me abruptly and walked away. He tossed me away like I was nothing. Maybe he found someone else and so no longer needed me. May be it was that he would not share with me what he was really feeling especially after the family tragedy.. yes I am hurt. And it’s tough tonight. 💔
ReplyI feel at peace. And I sent him this message both through mediation and text - “On Easter Sunday, I can't help but think about what this day signifies. It's about forgiveness, starting anew, and the incredible love that never fades, no matter what.
Looking back on everything, I've made my fair share of mistakes. But one thing I know for sure - Loving you was never one of them.
Just like how Jesus rose to give us a fresh start, I hold onto the hope that maybe, someday, we'll find our way back again together. Stronger. Wiser.
So, this Easter, I want to wish you peace, healing, and all the love in the world.”
Today is an instant day and a rebirth for me. Sending gratitude, forgiveness, and love no matter what. ❤️
Replyhttps://youtu.be/tT5lNecpZ3A?si=wYW05IBQt1oY2hWj A very powerful beat and meditation to connect with my twin flame. I have sent him texts and emails and he may or may not be reading them. But when I meditate to this to connect with his soul, I feel our hearts beating as one. I am allowing myself to feel the pain and reflect. The fault was all mine and I take it on. It does not change the way I feel about him or the love I have always had and always will have for him. Will I move on? It does not really matter. I will get stronger and redefine myself and I will be free. The love I carry for him won’t change though regardless to what he does, how he feels and who he is with.
ReplyI am away for a few days this week to the same place he had booked for us but then canceled when he changed his mind and the separation had begun. My heart just wants him to be there and have the urge to go there and we meet on the beach by “faith/chance”. Wouldn’t that be something? I’m going to use this week to reflect and let go of everything in the world and let people know I will not be available during this time.. I will carry my love for him in my heart and reset my life … It’s the beginning of the end of one life for me and the beginning of a new one. No more lies, no more fear, no more hurt, no more hiding, and no more worrying about what people will say. ❤️🙏
ReplyI woke up this morning ready for my trip and my renewed self. I listened to the twin flame podcast where feminine and masculine energy were discussed. In listening, I realised how much I had been operating in the masculine energy in my own home and that is why I could easily compartmentalise and suppress my emotions. It ultimately led to my health being impacted. Well, that and the Covid vaccine. According to the doctor, I did experience Covid vaccine injury and it impacted me severely. From my thyroid, to my shingles, to menopause. I spent thousands of dollars clearing my system out but it was needed. I wish I knew then what I know now. This week is all about connecting with my feminine energy and opening up completely forever more. Amazing how adversity and a broken heart can make you feel so vulnerable and soften you completely if you allow it to. It also connects you to God so much more and strengthens your faith. Makes me realise that before this, I had hardened up and my TF had softened for a long time as he was hurt and in pain. He was closer to God at that point. Then it all turned around and he hardened and I softened. Hopefully, we can both soften and open our hearts back again for each other and live the way it was intended. Together. Sending you love my TF 🙏🙏❤️❤️
ReplyWeather I like it or not, my TF was here to teach me something as I was here to teach him something. It all has to do with the spiritual awakening. I was the runner at first with my masculine energy at home . When I was with him I always felt in my feminine energy and at home. When I left to go and tend to the family, my masculine energy was out of control. There was a real imbalance and I needed to balance it. He was operating from the feminine more spiritual space with me, until it got too much and he was out of balance as well and his masculine energy took over and he cut me off completely. Because I needed to learn the lesson the really hard way. I was too much in my head to head his lessons. This week is my rebirth and giving birth is painful. Very very painful and so is this. But, I have to go through this. On my trip, I took off my wedding ring and put his ring on. Once I get back, I will have the conversation. My spiritual guide asked me not to have the conversation for at least three weeks after our initial call. For once I will listen to advice and do as I am told. But my intention is to let my karmic partner know that I fell in love and want to be with my TF even if he does not want to be with me. The only way to do this is to let my karmic partner know why my TF and I are not speaking and that I can no longer live a lie. My spiritual coach wants to do a channeling session with me at the three week mark. Then I can do what I should have done 8 years ago. I love you my TF and sorry for the pain I caused. I wonder what it is that you had to learn? I think I know but seems a tad arrogant of me to say it here. Hope one day you will talk about it and live our lives together. No matter what. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
ReplyI have committed to journaling every day as per the spiritual coaching advice. I feel at ease and calm. I am happy to be here in a space where I was meant to be last July with my Twin Flame. I am learning to go deep within and sit with my pain. It's not going to kill me :-) I realise I do not value myself and worry too much about what others think and need to be liked and acknowledged. My self-worth has been built on being needed and perfection. I worry too much about people's thoughts and am learning to let go of that. This year and at my age, was meant to be the year that I excel, and life was meant to be perfect. Turns out this year was the year for me to fall, to crash, for parts of me to die, and for a rebirth. It is true when you go through deep pain, loss, and mourning, it does make you vulnerable and weaken you. But it also strengthens you, makes you more empathetic, and draws you closer to God. It can close some people’s hearts, but luckily for me, all it is doing is opening it. I don't enjoy being vulnerable, but I acknowledge that losing everything and having an opportunity to rebuild is also a very strong place to be in. I did send a message to my TF from a place of love and no expectations. I wanted him to know how much the message from his Mum meant to me and it was not a coincidence that the text message of delivery was received at 1:23, 1 hour and 23 minutes after I arrived at the church. I was there for 2 hours. I cried hard and from the heart and I need to. I am so grateful. As for the meaning of the number 123, well here is another one I did not realise. My spiritual guide mentioned to watch out for numbers. I always thought I did not see numbers but only “things”. I thought the text and plant were very clear signs. Which they were. But then I realised after I was meditating yesterday and taking a walk that the number 123 must have great significance. Turns out I do receive numbers and just need to bring it to my awareness. 123 symbolises the following – “ Spiritually, the number 123 represents divine guidance and the sequential progression of your spiritual journey. It signifies a harmonious flow of energy from the spiritual realm, encouraging you to trust the guidance and messages you receive from your angels and higher beings.” And “Spiritually, 123 is a symbol of self-love, togetherness, and expansion. It's one of the luckiest angel numbers you can see—it signifies that you're making progress towards wonderful personal growth, meaningful relationships, and a higher spiritual existence.” The signs can’t get more powerful than this…. There is a Meme that I now love and laugh at that has someone asking for a sign to prove the first sign was real. I don’t need any more signs. They are all around me. Even being here feels like it was meant to be. I love you my TF exactly as you are and have a beautiful day.
ReplyWhy do I write so much? Because it's the best way I know to help myself. I journal my thoughts, I meditate, I read, and I feel like if I don't I go into a dark dark place. I don’t know how to deal with this type of heartbreak and disbelief in silence. This is tough. I believe in our love and I am trying to rebuild myself without him. It's almost like death and I'm trying to sort myself out and grow from this. I just know there is no speeding up the process as much as I want to. I want to wake up tomorrow morning and feel great. I want to feel loved and love again. I want the passion that I used to have to come back. I don't like feeling this helplessness and I want to keep it all in one place. Somehow writing my feelings down releases some of my feelings. I have to go back to everything I have read like the power of awareness and live in a place of faith and belief. I just love him so much..
ReplyThe three minute rainbow across the water by the mountian top was yet another sign for me. I sent you unconditional love now and forever more. I am grateful for all the you taught me, gave me, and how you treated me. Forever connected and I love you. One has to release and let go. I adore you for all that you are.
ReplyThey say that the universe will keep giving you the same experience till you accept them and learn from them. The less likely you are to learn from an experience the harder the universe will smack you across the face and pierce you in the heart, till you learn from the lesson. Well, turns out I needed a huge smack and to learn the hard way. My heart has softened and opened up to the reality and the truth, but I had to lose you to learn this lesson and now you can't even look at me or speak to me as if you can't stand me. I know your soul knows differently and if I could open your heart for only a tiny little bit you will see things differently. I now have an urge to tell the absolute truth but need your permission first before I tell him. You won't open my messages or accept them, so how do I do that? Everything you told me and taught me is true, so if only you could open your heart to that as well. This is not a desperate plea or a request but rather a heartfelt message of love and acceptance. I will forever love you and cherish you regardless. There will be no one else. Not in this lifetime or any other lifetime. That I know.
Twin flames are here to teach us lessons. The only reason you ran away from me was because I was running away from myself.
The areas you focused on to help teach me the truth:
• The kids will be fine, and I need to let them live their lives. That’s my job.
• The truth will set you free and anything else will be painful.
• It’s Be, do, have not Have, do, be when it comes to love and life.
• I worried too much about what others think,
• I should have trusted my heart and not what my Mum thought. That’s her journey, not mine. Not blaming her as she only went by my fears, and it was my responsibility to listen to my heart.
• I was also trying to build the business for us to give us security and then do what I had to do. Turns out the business means little to me without you as part of my life and it should have been the other way around.
• The Twin Flame journey can really hurt. Ouch. But am so grateful for our love. Only love can hurt like this.
• Life is to be lived in the now.
• Be grateful for what you have because one day you can lose it all.
• And so much more. I am sorry, please forgive me, I love you, and Thank you.
ReplyI realise I need to look after myself now. The pain is too much to have at times, but he does not want me and though he promised me eternal love 24/7/365 so often and for so long, it simply turned out not to be true. I know he went through a rough time, and it was not easy for him, but he also would not let me talk to him about it. I felt a lot of pressure and was getting sick, my dad’s situation was a debacle and my child got sick. It was a lot. I wish I had done it differently but can't change it now. The only thing left for me is to see him in my dreams and heart, book a channelling session with my spiritual coach and then look after my health and well-being. I want to go back to being happy and feeling alive. I sometimes wish I could just turn things off like he can. How he cannot contact me, respond to my messages, and just switch everything off like a light switch in a nano second is something I'd like to learn. maybe that's my lesson to learn. I love you forever and in my heart.
ReplyIn the silent chambers of my soul, you dwell,
A twin flame's essence, a story to tell.
In the arms of fate, we found our start,
But my fear's icy grip tore our love apart.
If time could bend to grant a second chance,
I'd paint our love in hues of romance.
For in your eyes, I see a love untold,
A saga waiting, yet to unfold.
In every heartbeat, a melody of your name,
In every sigh, a longing, a flame.
For you, my twin flame, hold the key,
To unlock the depths of love within me.
Give me but a moment, a fleeting glance,
To prove that our love is worth a second chance.
For in our union lies a tale divine,
A love story unmatched, destined to shine.
Let's rewrite the chapters of our past,
And build a love that will forever last.
For in your arms, I find my home,
Where our love's symphony sweetly roams.
Grant me this second chance, this sacred vow,
And together, we'll create our love story now.
For in our union, the world will see,
The most beautiful love story, you and me.
ReplyWhen I’m sad - I love you.
When I’m happy - I love you.
When I’m winning - I love you.
When I’m losing - I love you.
When I’m excited - I love you.
When I’m down - I love you.
When I’m dancing - I love you.
When I’m crying - I love you.
When I’m traveling to amazing places - I love you.
When I’m meeting amazing people - I love you.
When you hold me - I love you
When you don’t want to talk to me - I love you.
When things get tuff - I love you.
When it feels like all is lost - I love you.
When life is great - I love you.
When you walk away from me - I love you.
When the whole world feels like it’s falling apart - I love you.
When I’ve made mistakes - I love you.
When you made mistakes - I love you.
When you have an open heart and melt my heart - I love you.
When you close your heart and break my heart - I love you.
Point is, I realise my love for you does not rely on anything except for true unconditional love and it feels beautiful to be in this place. It’s not weak and it’s not desperate. It’s just pure love. I wish everyone this feeling.
Feeling this completely and I am grateful.
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Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13:1-8
ReplyToday I had a beautiful Twin Flame channeling session with an amazing spiritual guide. I’ve been speaking to your soul and also wanted someone to help me channel some more from you. She is the real McCoy. Here’s what came out of the session:
- I am the younger soul
- Your soul has been around longer than mine.
- Your soul is grounded and all knowing. Very calm.
- Mine is younger and needs to grow and is learning. This is not a negative.
- Your soul wants to protect me
- I should be following and listening.
- We met at a beach today (I know exactly which one) and you want me to be free like a 25 year old.
- Your soul let mine go like a mother needs to let go of her children before they come back. This is just an example.
- Your soul wants me to forgive myself.
- Our souls are connected and there is sorrow on both ends.
- We will be united again in the physical world soon your soul said.
Questions I asked:
Can he feel my soul like I feel his and the connection?
- Yes. Maybe even more than me because your soul is wiser, older and more grounded
Can he feel how sorry I am and how deeply I feel for him?
- Your soul wants me to forgive myself.
- It’s ok. This time apart was needed for me and for you to grow (me more maybe).
Does he what to reunite?
- To be ready for when you call me.
- Your soul wants to protect me and I need to allow that.
- From my soul: When you call me I’ll be there and ready.
How can I help him?
- Come home and rest. Rest my head and whole body on you.
- Just come home.
What do I need to do?
- Be ready to follow.
- From me: I am and will be.
He wants to protect me but can we protect each other? I feel like I let him down the last time and I should have done what my soul really wanted to do.
His question/Response - what if I were to see you today? He is nervous as well.
- My response: I have dropped all ego and unbalanced masculine energy. There is only understanding and love. I know what I did.
His response again- come home and rest your head.
- my response - When you are ready, I will be there with love only and ready. I want to come home.
ReplyTo my TF,
I hope this finds you in a moment of peace. There are so many words that have been lingering in my heart, waiting to find their way to you. Through the depths of the pain endured, I've come to understand that love, true love, outshines all boundaries, even those of time and space.
Despite the trials and the paths we've chosen to walk, my love only expands. It's a love that runs deep, touching the core of my being. In moments of solitude, I find myself reflecting on the beauty of what we shared, the lessons learned, and the growth that blossomed from our connection. I make time morning, lunch, and evening for solitude to allow for reflection, meditation, prayer, and giving thanks.
I now understand that genuine heartbreak has a way of stripping away the layers I’ve so carefully built up over the years, revealing the raw beauty of the authentic self. It's in these moments of vulnerability that I've discovered a strength I never knew I possessed; a resilience born from the depths of my soul.
Through the pain, I've delved into the depths of self-awareness, peeling back the layers of ego to see the truth beneath. It's a journey of growth, a journey that challenges me to embrace the light that shines within and find out what real spiritualism and faith are.
In the chaos of heartbreak, there lies a clarity that is greater than the pain. It's a clarity that whispers of healing, transformation, and a deeper heart-centred connection.
I also recognise now the difference between genuine heartbreak Vs. that of the ego. It's a delicate balance, one that requires honesty and introspection. Genuine heartbreak brings us closer to our true selves, while ego break seeks to shield us from the truth, feeding into unhealthy attachments and resentments.
My TF, I am committed to walking this path of healing and growth, not just for myself, but to honour the love that we shared. Your soul called out to mine to “Come Home”. When you're ready, I'll be here. In my heart, I am home with you 24/7/365.
Always with love and gratitude.
ReplyTo my TF:
It feels more than just a coincidence that we're tangled up in this place of triggering and healing.
Before we set foot on this earthly journey, I've come to realise that we made a pact, a sacred deal to support each other's growth in the deepest possible way.
We understood that this physical life would come with its fair share of challenges, layering us with negativity, traumas, fears, and false beliefs that weigh us down, dimming our inner light.
In our wisdom, we knew that facing this darkness head-on was the most potent way to grow. So, we chose to come here together, to reflect each other's souls.
Your actions, your retreats, your moments of silence—they're not cruel but rather catalysts for our growth (I've had my many moments too). Through the pain you stir within me, I see the depths of my wounds and fears. You reveal the beauty and depth of love buried within my soul.
Yes, it hurts beyond words. It cuts deep, revealing my inner turmoil piece by piece. But in that pain, I find freedom. In that pain, I discover my true strength.
When you pull away, it hits hard at my sense of worthiness. It digs up insecurities I thought were long gone. Yet, in that discomfort, there is an opportunity—to dig up the roots of my self-doubt and replace them with seeds of self-love in their place.
Together, we unravel the layers of our conditioning, breaking down the barriers that hold us back from reaching our full potential. Through self-discovery and introspection, we reclaim our power, shining the light in a world clouded by darkness. And right now there is a lot of darkness, yet have also experienced so much light.
So, when you step back, when you fade into the shadows, know that you're not abandoning me but guiding me towards the light within myself. Together, we're on a journey of transformation, bound by a love that goes beyond the limits of this earth.
I must admit the sensation is unreal. On the one hand, when I operate from the spiritual level, I know we are together as one, and the love is so strong it feels like you will appear in my life physically any minute and it is like the most beautiful love story ever to be told.
I feel you everywhere, yet in the physical reality, you are not here yet. But the physical world is always slower than the spiritual realm, so I go back to meditation morning, noon and night and allow myself to gently push the ego to one side and live in our truth. It does take heartbreak and adversity to break you down, shed the facade to come back to your true self, develop real empathy and live in love.
Always with so much gratitude and love..
ReplyWhat does self love look like to me? Being free with enough to travel comfortably and enjoy life, with no restrictions and sharing all these experinces with my TF. To work becasue I love it, with much more feminine energy and to make love daily. Freedom is to be able to explore brand new places, being of service where ever I go and holding hands on the beach or in nature with my TF. Freedom is have eneregy to be in nature and keep my body active, to dance and sing, laugh and cry, give and receive as well as to feel a sense of being enough. Freedom is when you love love for no reason and look in to your twin flames eyes and have a knowing... May we all find that kind of love now and forever more. Love you my TF.
ReplyI am grateful for all the lessons and grateful to be connected via the heart and in spirit with my TF. It was and is the most beautiful love I have ever experienced. This kind of love can never die. I can’t wait for our next real hug. You know the one. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.
ReplyI sent him the tatto I am getting and he will know the significance. I sent him that I am reading the Power of Now and it is so good... I'll be reading it a few times. I alsosent him two of my favourite meditations. Today I sent him two photos of a Tulip Field with this message: "I felt a pain that was not mine at present during the mediation and the first heart centred message/question that came to me was “I wonder if it is your pain either at present or when you were going through things that I caused or could not help you with?”.. the ho'oponopono came next 🙏 I pictured us walking through flower fields hand in hand and then someone posted these photos and sent them to me.. 🙏🙏"...I really am not my thoughts or emotions and will delve in to that even more to work on pure conciousness and heart centred being.... I did also send him a photos of 111 and 22 with a picture of a rainbow that came up after another meditation.
ReplyI sent this message to him today - "I don’t often dream and if I do I don’t remember them. Last night/early this morning after I meditated and went back to sleep I had a very vivid dream. You were living at my uncles house back in the Holy Land and we met on the bench as I was walking to his home to visit. I was walking past you. It was a beautiful calm conversation but you did need something. I woke up a little later than usual today to this text message from a beautiful Jewish lady I will be interviewing - her emojis struck me. The flag with the Clover and a purple tulip in the middle of it..
I can’t shake off the dream. It was not the usual dream. If you ever need anything, I am here .."
ReplyWe’re all just human beings and we all make mistakes. Life can be messy but it can also be beautiful and there can be lots of love - I’m going to go and live my best life. Letting go of Ego is not always easy but it is liberating. I am feeling the love for everything this moring whihc is really nice to be back here. I dont feel the fear of speaking my truth and know that I will have the very honest conversation to help me start a new life. I do want my TF to reach out to me and for us to be united and I know I will then have the conversation. I feel the love for everything and do not feel the fear. Letting Go and Letting God... One final note for today: I am not my physical or emotional pain. That is ego driven. I am at a soul level love and connected to all things xoxox
ReplyI sense your presence in the gentle sway of the trees, in the graceful dance of flowers paired in twos. The soothing melody of waves on the shore and the clouds forming a heart in the sky all whisper of your spirit. It might sound crazy, but I feel you all around me, and it's unclear whether it's my love, yours, or the fusion of our souls, but you're ever-present, entangled with my being.
Our story, it's the epitome of beauty, a narrative of undying love that outdoes time and circumstance. Regardless of what comes our way, this love remains unbreakable and will never die.
Thank you for being my guide, showing me the path to true existence and helping me understand what truly matters. It took losing everything to grasp the essence of consciousness and spirituality, to shift from the mind's ego-driven perspective to the heart's boundless understanding.
Before you walked away, fear consumed me, clouding my judgment and veiling the truth. Worries about the kids and finances overshadowed the profound connection we shared, leading me to prioritise material concerns over matters of the heart. I worked hard to build the business thinking that it would be good for us when the time came. But now, with clarity, I realise that my focus was misplaced, allowing the ego mind to dominate instead of embracing the infinite possibilities fuelled by the heart.
I hold onto the belief that our paths will meet once more, free from fear, guided solely by pure love. The universe sends me countless signs daily, affirming the strength of our bond, contradicting the doubts whispered by the ego mind. Every twist and turn, every trial we faced, was essential to bring us to this moment of realisation and truth. I am eternally grateful for the journey that led me to this point.
Last night, I had another dream and this time your daughter had organised the reunion as I stood outside your mother's window, with a Peace Lily in hand. It's a recurring theme lately, especially after my early morning meditations at 4:00 or 05:00 AM.
Though I hold no expectations, my heart resonates with an inner certainty that our reunion is inevitable, our love destined to come together again.
I once asked if you were prepared for this reunion, and in my dream, you answered with a definite "yes."
So, I send you love without bounds, wrapped in the embrace of peace, knowing that no matter where our paths may lead, our souls are forever together.
With all my love now and forever more.
P.s - All this I write from a sense of knowing void of ego and with so much clamness and pure love. We’re all just human beings and we all make mistakes. Life is messy but it can also be beautiful with so much love.
ReplyI was in a place of pure love, calmness and belief he is my TF. They say the grief cycle will take you on a path of denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. It does not have to happen in that order but it's pretty close for me. I feel like in the past two days since my last message I went through the anger and depression phase. I am angry at how he treated me in the end, but then my heart tells me, well he was only responding to how you were treating him. I was angry because of all the broken promises that he made so often over the years, but then my heart tells me, well you took it all for granted. I was angry because I knew early on and throughout our relationship that he could hurt me like no other yet I did nothing about it. But my heart tells me, it was all in my own hands. I’m angry at myself as well because I know if he were to walk back into my life today, I’d fall instantly into his arms and I feel weak for that, but my heart says that's just my ego. How can one not love his twin flame though? How can I be angry at him? Why am I not as gentle on myself as I am on others? I look back at everything and see my weakness and how pathetic I was. I remember wanting to tell him just how deeply I loved him and how much he meant to me and yet I did not. Why not? I also remember feeling so sick and not speaking my truth. Why was I too scared to leave my marriage? I am so unhappy in it anyway. Even now, I am not happy in my marriage, yet remain in it. My health is not great because I am not honest. Why am I so weak?
And then comes the realisation that I need to be kind to myself and that is the lesson I am meant to learn. I need to be kinder to myself and start speaking my truth and building myself back up again, with or without him. I want him to come to me and tell me he still loves me, then for me to end my marriage and be with him. I had that safety net he promise but did not use it and now I just want it back. But I know I should be ending my marriage and jumping before anything else. Yet, I remain so nice to my husband and pretend nothing is wrong even though we both know it is over and we are just going through the motions. I do ask myself though what if my husband decides to never speak to me as well and is mean, am I strong enough to handle it? Whatever happened to me? I used to be so strong. Admittedly though, never when it came to relationships. I’ve always been pathetic when it comes to relationships and men. Again, maybe that is part of my learning and growth. I am turning 55 in one month and a half. I just want to be free and happy with great health and energy. I feel so lost. Is this a part of the journey? or is this just perimenopause and midlife crises? if it was up to me, I’d be living in a three-bedroom apartment by the beach either in Deewhy, manly, or Shelley Beach or something like that. I would be writing daily, exercising daily, and working without worrying about money and wages. I would love to have a beautiful calm life full of love walking hand in hand with my tf and enjoying life together. That’s all I ever wanted. How silly was I? So, now all I can do is let go, surrender, forgive myself, and move on in the physical world. What will be will be. I will hold on to the love in my heart for that can never die and surrender to everything else. I need to focus on rebuilding my life.
ReplyThe dreams and feelings get stronger and stronger and it still leaves me wondering if they are my feelings, your feelings, or our combined feelings. I know it’s all about growth and connecting with our true essence and soul, letting go of control, letting go of fear and staying in my feminine energy or at least balancing divine feminine energy with divine masculine energy. I realise now I was too much in my masculine energy. If only I knew then what I know now consciously. My mind tells me, “he hates you anyway”, “he does not see you as he used to”, and “he’s moved on”, otherwise he would have connected and responded. My heart and soul in meditation, in dreams, or when I’m connected to source tells me to let go of these ego thoughts and surrender. Just allow and live in the now with the love that I know and feel. It tells me I can’t rush anything and to keep working on myself, to let go of ego, materialism, and the need to control.
“The purpose of a twin flame relationship is to awaken you to your untapped potential and ignite a fire deep inside you. This relationship pushes you to do and be better, and at the end of the day, it opens up a world of possibilities you never even dreamed of. “This journey demands spiritual growth”. It’s not meant to be easy as twin flames bring out the best in each other as well as exaggerate all the weaknesses and vulnerabilities. This is done for a reason - to allow each twin to face their fears and grow from them. That’s the true purpose of the TF separation before they reunite.
This journey is not an easy one but a necessary one I guess, and I hope that one day soon when/if you are ready you will respond and will want to meet having both grown from this experience which is what we had to go through to come on the other side of the boundless beauty and love that exists. There is an emptiness that exists and I do miss you, though I know this is all part of the journey and I needed to grow in many ways. In my dream last night when we met, while initially you were hesitant, I could see from your eyes that your heart softened and we spoke for what felt like hours with a knowing that we had arrived. With my Gazelle shoes, I walk around beach sides looking at three-bedroom apartments overlooking the ocean, with a knowing in my heart that this is a big part of where the future is (together). But I am also no longer attached to places, or things but rather am open to it all as love is what’s important and not materialism. That part is the easy part and will follow. Why I had the equation back to front is only a result of misplaced fear.
ReplyFeeling the love all around me... Love you always.
ReplyIn the morning's tender light, love stirs,
A whispered breeze, a song unheard,
Upon the shore, where dreams unfurl,
I walk, embraced by love's sweet swirl.
Sunrise paints the sky in hues of gold,
As if the heavens themselves behold
The love that dances in the air,
A sacred bond beyond compare.
Beside the waves, I feel you near,
Your presence gentle, yet so clear,
In every ripple, every sigh,
Love's essence lingers, soaring high.
Through the day, in the winery's embrace,
As music weaves its gentle grace,
Birds serenade with melodies sweet,
Love's symphony, our hearts complete.
As the sun dips below the horizon's line,
In nature's grandeur, love entwines,
With each note played, with each breath taken,
Our souls unite, no bond forsaken.
Though miles apart, our souls align,
In every moment, love's divine,
Hand in hand, side by side,
Together, love's journey we'll abide.
So I'll cherish each moment, each fleeting glance,
Knowing love's embrace, in every circumstance,
For in my heart, you'll always be,
My love, my hope, eternally free.
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