I have fallen in love hopefully(?)

Heyyy, No god comments por favor!! <3

Okay, So This is still an unsure thing. I may be just delusional, as it has happened before, but HEAR ME OUT.

So, there's this popular guy who I'll call M rn! He's a football player, and the only reasons that I know him is the fact my younger sister is a cheerleader for the team, I had a few classes with him 2 years ago, and the fact he's just popular.

And He is not that.. exactly nice guy type? He is homophobic (as I've guessed but still unsure), He is only playing football or hanging out with his friends, He is somewhat rude to people (again, guessing by my pov), and etc etc. Mind you, I'm a trans guy who still visibly looks like a girl and I'm highly used to never having romantic or even sexual feelings for anyone so this still may just be a delusion. And, I'm like those very socially-introverted yet sweet, funny people you meet at school as my friends title me.

But, When I have thought about him recently, I feel... different. Like, I suddenly imagine him and I being close (even though we've only seen as acquaintances and littler me was always annoyed by him), I imagine him like complimenting me and caring about me and etc etc. It makes me actually feel giddy, and It makes me forget how.. to be blunt, toxic his view on some people are. It may sound trashy from both sides, but I feel normal now.

In the past I've never felt normal. I never had a crush on anyone, I'd always have to fake liking others romantically as to not be outcasted by others, I always had been envious of my friends for having crushes and being giddy. Now, I have only told 2 of my closest friends so far and their reactions are just "ooooh."

IDK IF THATS GOOD RN BUT I'M SEEING LATER...

ANYWAYS BACK TO MY SITUATION!!!! <33

I know he and I are just polar opposites. He likes sports, curvy and/or very pretty girls like Jenna Ortega for example, Being basically very extroverted and having lots of friends. Meanwhile, I'm those book tropes of socially anxious twinks that find reading more exciting than hanging out. Like actually, and not only cause my mental disorders I.e autism and stuff like that. But, As I've mentioned, I just feel giddy to the point I LISTEN TO THOSE PLAYLISTS PEOPLE MAKE FOR COUPLES, I FINALLY RELATE TO THINGS PEOPLE SAY ABOUT THEIR CRUSHES, AND STUFF LIKE THAT!!

so, is it bad if My first crush is him or am I in the clear? also, HOW DO I GET HIS ATTENTION!!! I really wanna impress him or even just get noticed once by him, that I'm slowly mimicking my friend's thing where if she fixates on a guy, they just stalk their entire school schedule than try walking where they may be during those times. <333