My Unsent Letter

Dear mom, I feel like you've never understood me, nobody really understands me. My mom, my friends, my brother, my dad, my sister. Everyone just thinks that i'm mentally not okay. And that might be true, but I always thought it was normal having a coach and going to therapy. I thought everyone had problems like me, but as I grew up it seemed like most people just had a normal good bond with their friends and parents. I couldn't relate and imagine what that was like. My brother always used to make jokes about sending me to a mental hospital because that is where I belong anyways. Everytime I try to explain something I always get something negative back, I don't want to die but I don't want to live. I don't want to see you or anyone else sad, but I can't take it anymore breaking down every night and bottling all my feelings up.

I wonder if u would've been happier if u didn't have me, or if I was mentally okay.