Basically, do or die

It's sad and uncomprehensible how life on earth comes in all sizes and shapes, and how some get forgotten and others squashed like flies. Basically, this is do or die. But let me explain. The ideology of survival of the fittest shouldn't be followed as a moral. I am never going to wake up from this nap unless I was in dire need of change. Through generations, we learned to be really comfortable in our early years. I don't know what to tell you, but work seems hard to picture in my mind as something I would do. But basically, I remembered the song Survival by Eminem and how in the beginning gives me the vibe that this is indeed do or die, well, the song very much implies so... it's evolution baby. But I just don't know, like for real. Life to me is so disappointing, you say to change it? It's not that easy. I'm lucky to be human, it feels like being anything else, like an insect especially, would like... really suck. Such an unforgiving world. I believe in kindness too. I'm not going to change the world, you are right. Revolutionary people are in charge of that. What can I really do if I ran a home life? I know for a fact people die. Poof, now I'm 50 something years old and my mom died (hypothetically speaking), and my heart broke and realized right away that life goes on. Death brings such a relief, I feel like; that's what I felt when my grandma died... such a long life too. I cannot imagine living or doing 60, 70 years on life. It's a hell of a life. Honestly, I'm discontent. Because we as a society, have no awareness. Don't people realize world peace is a simple concept? It's like, we are afraid to make the step. Everyone holding their own, working like slaves. So what about "do or die"? Yeah, about that... if you never do anything to change it, it's gonna stay the same, you are part of the problem. But what can I do? I hate the feeling that life as it comes with all the different sizes and shapes, some get more prestige than others. It's like, other life doesn't matter. So yeah, this is evolution, and it never stopped. Evolution is a good theory, but at face value is a rather simplifying thing. I was a young, dumb kid wondering where we come from, and it's funny huh? How stupid kids can be. Let me share you a secret, but once, when I was a kid, I was trying to validate and rationalize slavery... yep, you heard right. Why are we so inherently stupid? What is in us? I don't like the way this world works, but well, I have to swallow my worries and concerns. I would like a world where everyone gets accepted and included. How sad is it that we turn our backs on people in need? We become careless. It's also true that as dumb as we are in our early years, there's also a good will to make things right and show random acts of kindness. Now, I don't believe that the world is going to suddenly be good if some people show kindness, while others -or most people- keep doing evil. It's like being vegetarian or vegan, it's a really good cause, but honestly, it gets overshadowed by the amount of people eating meat currently. I'm not necessarily happy I'm gonna die, but I also know I haven't be here, alive, most of the time; most of the time I was just slumbering around in small pieces and elements. It really began with simple forms of life, and it went from there, right? That's evolution. It starts with small organisms, and gradually becomes bigger and better. Sometimes in life I don't fucking know anymore. Well, it's oddly kinda working besides all the wrong things happening. I believe we could achieve things like world peace, I truly do. Imagine life in 10,000 years from now; scary thought, huh? However, it's not that much like that. Because in movies that are about the future, it's so fictional. I bet you during your lifetime thought about, "things are going to be so advanced 30, 40, or 50 years from now during my lifetime," you might now be in your late 20s and life wasn't really like that. So, are we lucky to be alive? It seems like, if you looked at the earth, how could anyone not get mind blown when thinking about how long it took for it to form? It's mind boggling! It's really odd, like existence itself. There are things that, not to say never, but as of right now, you wouldn't dream in a million years or more to know. Because this is also true, but we are conformed of the elements of the earth, and that tells me we are only tiny pieces of the whole cosmos. So therefore, we are just not built to get it. It's next to impossible. I believe our purpose in life is not to become one organism, one with it all, or God... well, let me put it in different and better words, but I think that we already are. And yeah, like philosophers and existentialists tell you all the time that "you are it," yet what does it matter; are you gonna tell that to someone currently suffering? Maybe in those cases it's convenient that pain does either end by healing or death itself. However, do you see what is currently happening to me? If this is do or die, what I'm saying shouldn't have been said, and I should drop the case and go eat or something, yet I feel the need to be so meaningful about life and everything. So I came to the realization that this is indeed do or die, because then it would absolutely not matter at all. However, I don't necessarily like this idea, and I would rather a revolutionary reading this, by any chance, to realize that peace is not far away from happening... to me, peace is the mission. I would replace the idea of doing or dying with cooperating and succeeding.