what I want/ed to tell you

(will be referring to people as person 1, person 2, person 3, etc. for privacy)

person1:

you aren't in the right. you keep saying you want to drop all this drama and wish that person2 wasn't shit talking you, but you are too! you tell everybody about what's happening and don't respect the fact that what is going on should be kept within the friend group, and you keep instigating this and talking about it all the time and shit talking person2. its not cool and stop being paranoid that people are shit talking you because they aren't, and when you tell that to people without being sure you are spread rumors and could ruin a person reputation for something they didn't do! you are a good friend but you need to know this!

person2:

oh come on! be straightforward. one moment you say that you did in fact talk about person1 behind their back in a bad way, and then now you aren't? now you are making me feel guilty and confused! I understand that I should've gotten your story instead of blindly trusting my best friend and that's my bad. but keep you story straight because you are confusing me and ignoring me and making me feel like shit!

person3:

why did you lie to me? don't you understand that neither person1 or person2 are in the right? after everything i have done for you, you went behind my back and person1's back and betrayed me. i can't believe you and im sorry im mad at you because i really shouldn't be because you are in the right and you did the right thing but i just feel betrayed even though i shouldn't. so im sorry.

person4 (unrelated to person1,2,3):

you have made me hurt more than you can comprehend. you knew i liked you and you liked me back. so why did you ignore me and avoid me for so long? you have made me cry myself to sleep thinking about will he wont he. and 13 fucking days after you told me you liked me, you said you didn't anymore. just because I told you I was gay EVEN THOUGH I SPECIFIED I LIKED MEN MORE. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO, THERE ISN'T ANYTHING DIFFERENT ABOUT ME JUST BECAUSE IM LGBTQ+. do you even know how much that hurt? and then when I ignored you, YOU WERE SO SALTY. LIKE WHY DO YOU CARE, YOU DISSED ME CUZ I WAS GAY. I HATE THAT I LIKE YOU. I love you so much. what happened to the guy that was always there for me. I opened to you, you were the only person I could truthfully vent to. and then you left me. now I don't have anyone. you make me feel so alone and you have changed me. not in a good way though. I miss the old you. I miss the old ME. and you were the one who made me feel this way. I want you to hurt the same way I do. I hate your guts but I love you. and I know its not right to wish you to feel this way and I'm sorry.