Fighting More

Today I fought with my mom while making chicken creole... fucking great. 🥲

I hate how she always wants to have the right or last word in the matter... she raises her voice constantly instead of softening out and makes me feel like I'm a psychopath or something. This time I was correcting her that she always misinterprets or misunderstands me, and she got so like... raised the tone of her voice and said to stop it, "I don't wanna fight anymore." But I honestly feel like she is the one bringing in the fight whenever I say something that I feel she's doing wrong and that I don't like what she does to me. I said, "you always make a weird face or a noise of annoyance whenever you think I said one thing but I never really said that," and she was just misinterpreting me. She's like really at a defensive here, she even has been fighting with my brother lately. I just really dislike how she could not go easier on me and she's constantly raising the tone of her voice, completely avoiding what I said because she says she's "tired," like she never cares about my feelings. I consider my mom as someone who has good genes (whatever that means), but behaves in a really unlikable manner, while I have bad genes and at least try a little bit to be decent. Sick of fights and hugs afterwards, so today I didn't even hug her... it's getting old. She makes me seem like I'm always wrong, always raises the tone of her voice, and fuck no... sometimes she's not right, and sometimes she is, but today she's wrong. She always misunderstands me, several times a day wouldn't be a wild assessment at all... pretty accurate in fact... and I told her about how she seems annoyed sometimes for something I said and she said "no no no, you are completely wrong," yet she told me she feels the same about me, that I give her "strange looks" when she says something sometimes. So, moral of the story, we both might be wrong, and your own fears are the true enemies.