I am so inlove with my crush its bad

Its 8:15pm in the midwest rn and i feel like im gonna cry js typing this out. I am bisexual but none of my crushes have felt like this before, regardless of gender. I rly like this guy, i have liked him for a year and 5 months. He goes to my school. We kept making eye contact, him and my friend were not friends but they would joke around and be fucking loud in my history class. I decided to start talking to him because it would be easy to. I would talk to him with my friend in the class and we used to throw shit at him as a joke but he dgaf. On the last week of school i got a 45 on my test and he got a 78, he got rly close to my face and bragged about it. I think about that a lot. I told my friend to tell him i liked him and he said “ik it!😃” because he wasn’t going to be at school for the rest of the week. I used to think and talk about him a lot but i kinda keep it to myself now.

When we got back to school we didnt say a word to each other. Over the summer i found his house, his moms facebook, and his dad’s business but i Think his mom deleted Facebook because I can’t find it his account. But he dated 2 girls that kinda had the same style as me. One of the girls js dates all of the guys in my school. But this other girl he was kinda attached to her and they dated for like 2 weeks. But they broke up because they were not that close. But one of my guy friends is gay and he used to have a crush on the guy i am talking about. They seemed so happy towards each other and they were kinda touchy😭. After the gay guy stopped liking him they stopped acting like that. But what makes it worse is that he has a lot of female friends and it fucking scares me.

One of my old friends said that she caught him looking at me in my pre biology class multiple times. Sometimes we make eye contact in the halls, and one time i wore the same pajama pants as him and he was staring at me all day. One time i was using the camera on my computer and i saw him looking at me the whole time i was fixing my earring. Another time, a couple days ago, i walked to the other side of the classroom, to sharpen my pencil and he looked at me the whole time. I could see from the corner of my eyes a lot of the time that he is looking my way. My friend, who had history with them last year has home economics and she said he is dumb asf in it. She told me the had to change baby diapers in the class and they used dolls but they made them shake and cry and he got so pissed off he js started punching it. Than yesterday he accidentally exploded something in the microwave and broke it when they were learning how to cook. I asked her if she could set us up for something and i would pay her. She backed out and said she wasnt sure because he proly doesn’t like me.

I feel so empty and drained and he is always on my mind. Idk if he is gay or bisexual or if he is js trying to date all of those girls. Idk why i like him so much sometimes hearing his name or seeing him makes me wanna puke. I was blushing and feeling so anxious writing this out but idk i have had crushes on many boys and girls but never like this. I feel delusional.