I'm mentally tired

I sometimes end up saying everything that runs through my mind to my partner and end up receiving logical advice. I know he's doing it out of care, but what I really want is for him to listen. I just need someone who can listen to me without any judgments. I've always been the listener for others, but why can't I find a single person who can listen to me without judging me? I cry myself to sleep at nights and wake up the next morning pretending everything is fine. I'm tired of pretending for the sake of others, but I also don't want my loved ones to feel bad about what I'm going through. It's frustrating and exhausting.