To anyone reading this: Know you're not alone.

Just like you,

I am a human being with flaws, commiting mistakes and feeling insecure. I tend to hide them so I can focus on what I have to do in my everyday life. I honestly don't like my person. I recognize my father's ego in me at certain moments and the need for evil gossip when I want to tell something, just like my mother. Unlearning my parents unhealthy behaviors, upbringing, habits, vocabulary and beliefs isn't something that happens from day 1. It's been a challenge to purge all the evil my parents taught me without realizing it. Sometimes I've thought that I won't reach a better state of healthy behavior since my parents were the only adults I used to live with because they didn't let me take classes, go to parties, have boyfriends (on other times I would decline my suitors for their own sake even if they didn't understood at that moment) or even have friends. My parents were full of drama, victimization, grudge, hate, envy, evil gossip, criticism, paranoia, cowardice and malice. I'm still learning to unlearn all of this and I can say I've crossed many hardships to purge their sickness from my heart and soul.

My point with this?

Is the following one:

If you grew up in a dysfunctional family, you can unlearn their ways for your own well being. You don't need to continue the toxic cycle your parents had. You can be different. You can be the light you'd like to see in your darkest moments. Don't judge yourself. Don't hold grudges. Practice forgiveness. Practice introspection. Practice having mercy on yourself without self indulgence. Practice loving yourself beyond the physical. Practice accepting where you are and open yourself to the great possibility that things can be so much better for you.

Because you deserve it.

Don't give up.

I come from a place where my own parents neglected me in every way possible to the point where I'm still kinda ignorant at basic social skills that any normal human can do.

I had to learn things on my own and it took me more years than others, but I helped myself. It wasn't easy, but I was doing it for me and I made it.

If you're living a difficult situation where you don't receive support from those around you, know that you are strong enough to fight for yourself, to fight to get the peace, stability, harmony and love you deserve.