I've been doing so good :(

My life has gotten so much better, a couple of days until I'm 2 months clean from substance use and I've recently been talking to this guy and I'm so in love with him and he knows it and he is too. And I spend every day with him, but the minute the weekend rolls around I get no texts. And it's upsetting bc I feel like a FOOL texting him, I feel like a baby crying for attention and I just went to the mall with my friends and as soon as i got in the car I wanted to be left alone and scream and cry and i dont know why, ive been doing so well why does this heavy feeling in my chest keep coming back?