i miss her, and i think i love her..(responces encouraged)

I met her after a breakup. I (15f) missed my bus after a fight with my ex, and went to a shop to wait. She saw me, crying, and hugged me telling me "it's okay baby calm down". I felt relieved so fast. She was the type of girl you were scared to be friends with off of appearance, but craved her attention. After I calmed down a bit, she said she will see me tmr, and text me. Ever since that day we were best friends. A school shooting/gang fight happened. We came from different backgrounds and my family has a history in my city. She didn't know my dad was a blood, I posted supporting my cousin who was in the fight, she saw it and ghosted me after apologizing to me, for me wasting my time with her. She was in the rival gang the entire time. I think I loved her, not as a friend, I just cannot get over her, I cry sometimes thinking about how close we were and how much I smiled around her and how she made me feel. She was the most unique person I've ever met. I miss her. So much. And if somehow you see this. I think I love you.