Stressed Out

I have never felt pity for myself cause I have always believed in God's Plan but today is a different day.

1. Been Laid off 4 months back from a Job I've been working diligently for 2 years after managerial change, who pressured me to leave the company while he got his ex teammates from his previous company to come in.

2. Had an ACL surgery immediately after layoff with no one with me to take care apart from a few friends who visited me occasionally. Also cost me a ton of money and meanwhile gained a lot of weight because of the same cause me working out stopped.

3. Interviews have been bad, even after answering all the questions I've been rejected for apparently not being a good fit even with Experience. I have have 2 Masters, and Bachelor's from the best university in India, Have CFA and Actuarial exams that have relevance in the industry I've been looking for jobs in but getting nothing even with these many skills!!

4. My H1B not getting picked for the 3rd and last time. It's a Visa that helps you work in the US.

5. More money spent to stay in the US by restarting college to study which has added another level of stress in my life.

6. My girl leaving me after seeing me gain weight and not getting job after 4 months...Girls are harsh, never break in front of them. I was never a Redpiller but I'm thinking that the Mandom makes sense!

7. I'm becoming Atheist and Nihilistic day after day with absolutely no trust in anyone or anything after these cases.

I'm broken totally hopefully things get better when I see this down the line. I'm not a quitter at all but this time has made me think of just leaving everything and becoming a Monk!