Shattered & Broken

All I wanted was to love and be loved!!! all I wanted from you was the same respect I gave you all this years ! all I wanted was for you to be my everything ! I wanted you and no one else I wanted us till the end of time !! I had this desire and wish to get to grow old with you ! I really LOVED you !!! I really cared for you!!!! You were supposed to be my HUSBAND !!!! my partner in crime , my best friend !!!! but you didn't care at all for our relationship not just that, you honestly didn't care about ME !!! but I was so blinded by so called LOVE that I didn't see your red flags , that I didn't see them at all !!! 6 years later had to pass in order for me to see the real you , the unfiltered version of you , who you really were as a person !! Unfortunately you are someone that I don't recall , and the person you have become is not the person I fell in love with ...... I have never in my life been so emotionally hurt and emotionally drained by a person...... :( if I am being honest you really shattered me as a person , and as a woman !!!! you made me feel like I was never enough , or pretty enough , or worth loving ......... by the way you would treat me and show me ..... I just never wanted to see you for who you really were ..... I made this charming man in my mind , this sweet , romantic, funny , adventurous dude ........that in reality never existed !!!! it was me who put you and had you in a pedestal . but now I see you as you are and the fact that u show me everyday that you don't care and that it doesn't matter to you....... is why you and I are no longer going to be together anymore !!!!! you knew what I was afraid of , you knew what was gonna hurt me and yet you were the man to pull the trigger on me!!!!! You are a freakin selfish asshole !!!!! ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS YOURSELF !!!!! IT may take me a while to be okay and heal my self as a person .....but I am done with you and your disrespect !!!!!! you are not the man I want to spend my forever with !!!!!!!!!! I may be shattered and broken for a little while but I will be ok .... maybe not now but I will be ok !!!!!!!!!