BLANK

Have you ever experienced a blank state of mind? In every scenario of your life? For example., when someone throws a question at you.., Hey what would like to have for food? DONE. BLANK. STARE..., Hey what do you want to pursue in life? BLANK. STARE. I mean., I don't know why but I have been feeling my life is blank, full of question marks. Being alone with your thoughts and being blank, two different things? or is it Same? I want to write so much and yet I cannot find words to type? Why do I feel like this?

Now let's say, I have decided to pursue my Bachelors in another domain after 7 years?! And I was told that the classes would begin today only to find that it was expected to begin today but it's not. It would start on 8th of july. Now, I haven't told my mother about this yet and she assumes I am still in class only to avoid her "I told you so's..and she would exhaust me into replying to "why would I be crazy and run away (I did not elope; her exaggeration) far away from home, to study ". I mean, I love my parents and my sweetheart granny who I miss so much but I have found peace whenever I have been alone. Am I crazy? Do anyone relate to what I am feeling or does this topic sound alien to you?

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