My Unsent Letter

Just because I wasn't apart of your friend group or close to you guys, didn't make it ok to just ignore my question or suggestion. Whenever our mutual friend suggested anything or asked if anyone wanted to hangout, everyone would chime in and answer. However, when I did it, no one answered a damn thing. It hurt knowing that there was a huge difference in our treatments amongst "friends". I hated that every time even now, then when I ask if anyone wants to hangout, it's like talking to a brick wall, but when others say the same damn thing, you all flock together and plan it out. I hate it. That's why I think I have up trying to reach out and initiate something. Because no one answers anyways. I know no one will even see this or know my true thoughts, but it doesn't matter anymore, I just needed to get this weight off my chest. And maybe a little frustration. I still enjoy spending time with you all, but that doesn't mean I'm going to go out of my way to initiate a hangout or whatnot. I just want to care anymore and just go with the flow. It's easier that way, instead of wondering what makes me so different that no one decides to even answer a damn simple question like "Anyone wanna hangout today?"