"When You Know You Know"

I always thought that when you find the one you keep forever, you don't expect it. I thought that you would just start dating, never knowing if a problem would come up and you would break up and start over. You would start dating THE ONE for an unusually long time, get married, and grow old together, without expecting it when you were younger.

I thought the old, "when you know you know" wasn't true, and when you started you thought that you and your partner were going to break up sooner or later, but never did.

And that's what I felt. Hopeless and confused. Every time I started dating someone, they just had this weird vibe. Not enough to break up with them, but I couldn't imagine that they would be the one. I loved them, but I hadn't found MY person yet. I always felt nervousness, or anxiety around these people. I thought it was because they were amazing. But I didn't feel HOME. A problem would arise, and we would break up.

That was until I met her. She was confident, and made the first move. I was smitten with her from the day we had met, but never let on because I was afraid to feel that anxiety again. Our first date was fun, and I felt butterflies, but not like I was on the edge of my seat, or waiting for something heartbreaking to happen. It was because something told me that she was astounding.

We got more comfortable with each other after a month, and started coming over to each others houses frequently.

All of a sudden when we were cuddling, I felt something soft in my chest. I looked up at her, and I saw my forever. It felt like home, it felt like she wouldn't judge me or leave me because something happened. I asked her if she felt the same way, and she said that she felt it, too. It was warm, and I felt secure.

I knew.