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i honestly dont know whats wrong with me anymore. when me and the guy i loved with all my heart broke up i went down this deep hole and i feel like im just stuck here i cant move on and i cant get past anything that has happened. i dont know what i want to do with my life, its like everybody knows what they want to do, but im here just questioning everything that i had planned for me. my eating disorder came back or at least thats what i think it is. i might be wrong ive never been officially diagnosed with one but i try to starve myself and when i dont eat less than 800 cals a day i force myself to throw up, i dont know if this is an ed but i wouldnt be surprised. i wish things was different. my family has noticed about me not eating and now they force me to. everytime they do i just want to cry. they say stuff like you dont need to lose weight your skinny enough but they just dont get it. they may see me as skinny but i dont think ill ever been skinny enough for me. i wish they didnt know about it and they just left me alone. i had something like this before but i recoverd, but now that its back and im older i dont think i want to be recovered i would rather be like this the rest of my life than be fat. even though i know that they are really bad effects on your body from this i dont think that it really matters. i know that i need to recover but a part of me wants to get as sick as i can get. and im no where near it, i still have a long way to go. anyways thats all bye bye
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Omg. I live bigger women. I don't want no barbie doll. All those people that are built differently are most of the time mean and all they know is how to be sexualized. You need to be eating like 1400 calories and making sure it's nutritious. You need to take care of yourself. You can't just starve to death because of people's lame view of beauty premium. I don't like that people fall into that. You need to eat. Eat healthy foods like fruit and vegetables. Ya know what we ate for the last week? I bought like a bunch of bags of pepper and onions already cut up and some already cooked chicken great value brand is better than Tyson. And you heat it up. Get tortillas and melt cheese on it if you want and bam. Quesdillas. Way cheaper with more nutrients. Do not let this world drag you down to that point that you're straight up starving yourself cuz you don't feel loved. I want you to be healthy. I want you to not be prone to a heart attack. You're so beautiful to me and I want you to take care of yourself. I have heavyweight genetics. Oh well. I'm gonna be a heavyweight girl. That don't care about looking like a barbie doll.
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ReplyI have an eating disorder too because I have stomach issues from some anxiety disorder. I'm looking for eating disorder specific psychologists or a hospital. Are you able to look into those? Sorry to hear about that break up.
ReplyI like chocolate too much. And I'm trying to get on Medicaid Insurance cuz I got some issues going on. And I'll definitely be talking to a therapist while I'm on that. Couldn't afford everything with a full time job. The medical bills were getting ridiculous. I need to find a part time job though before I go completely nuts.
Replyi can look into them but i dont know any. and thanks
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