Twinkle of Thought

and if I had one wish it'd be as so

don't be like me

for I am not what I wanted to be

I became strong for the world told me so

I had not one friend for whom could i trust

I had no strong bonds for they will all leave

so please do not look at me with eyes adorn

becouse deep inside the real me is torn

I would not have survived long

if my heart was soft for that was a sign of weakness

so when you talk of me

don't give such admiration or praise

because the things I endured was a much prolongued phase

it's easier to be bitter and estranged

to mold into what the world told me; to change

and when you look back at what I was before

I hope you could tell that the hard pills I swallowed were not my choice

I once loved so fierce and led with passion

my heart on my sleeve your name written on it

til the suffocating thoughts devoured me like a hungry beast

my overthinking mind made a frenzy feast

overwhelmed with emotions I could hardly breathe

so If I could have at least one thought my own

know that it's better to be pure naive if I could call it so

than to be a rock left to sink while the stream still flows

with your hand reaching out yet no hand to hold

remember to be kind,compassionate and bold

so when the world looks to you it sees pure gold

don't ever be like me dying slow

dreading the time I'm old

for the world was and is never my home

waiting impatiently to die all alone

hoping one day then my story can be told